another 3 to 4 days before i officially start my internship. but i feel deeply for my dear friend who started her internship on yesterday (wed). i mean, she had to leave next monday, which is the day i will be starting my internship.

i'm kinda mentally prepared for my internship, going through the training, meeting new people, and beginning the new chapter of my life. however, the news of her leaving on the day i start really left me thinking about a lot of things: thinking about how she's going to handle the inflow of info about the hotels over there, will she be doing fine, will she be able to adjust to the lifestyle there, thinking about communication means. i'm on the other hand not prepared to see her leave.

although it's just an internship, it is also somewhat another way of really getting in touch with the working world. hopefully, this experience will give all of us a better idea of the kind of job that really suits us. sigh, i just can't seem to pen down my feeling about this whole internship.

btw, i'll be working under Cathay Pacific, in the airport. so i'll be able to send her off next monday. honestly, i'm thinking a lot about what i'm going to do during my internship to sustain my relationship with as many ppl as possible. firstly, im not someone who takes initiatives. secondly, there's actually not many who are my friends.. so.. hmm..

this week is the week before my internship, (yes, i know i have said that quite a couple of times..) but i can't believe i'm still working at Waraku 5 days this week. i didn't ask for the shift, i was allocated.. i have no say.. sad. am not able to have a proper rest.

for my next post, i'll post some pics of the SA gathering we had at the siloso beach resort, and the k session with my brother, and the dinner on ailing's first day at work. =>

ailing, mich and i, for the first time decided something within 10 mins, and bought a puzzle for van's bd prezzie within 5 mins. haha. and we did it in less than 2 hours. hehe.

steamboat session at yin san's house to early celebrate her birthday as she will not be in singapore then.. and then the ppl played uno stacko, snake and ladder, and twister..

it's dinnertime!!

the affinity between arthur and i.. since sec 3.. haha.

it's twister time!! (raudah, jonathan, yin san and arthur)

happy super early birthday yin san!!

as i have promised earlier.. here's the picture of our attempt at the potato salad.. ta da!!

one big pot of potato salad.. yummy..

went to TAS for the beach party.. the music was good.. didn't try the food though. too angry and upset to do anything else. really have the urge to just leave everything as it is and dun bother about anything at all. i am making an effort to make things go well, but seems like non is appreciating the effort. it's all right really, but i just dun like it when ppl dun respect me. come on, i also have feelings okie. forget it.

anything that's on my mind is regarding someone that's close to my heart. i'm quite sad to know that my words are not as convincing as others, i'm upset my words weight lesser than others and she listen to them, i'm sad to know i'm not the first person to get the latest news from the person, i am jealous that others know more about the happenings of this person than me. perhaps it has always been a one-sided affair. perhaps i'm looking too deep into the matter. perhaps, it's just me.

no matter how close i try to be with a person, i can nv maintain the relationship.. at least it has nv been till now, and i think if i were to regret about something in life, that is not having a truly close friend that shares the happenings of our lives with each other.. having a friend as the first person you would like to share your happiness and problems with. having observed the 'one-sided affair', i sudden feel lonely, feeling lost without anyone to really turn to and talk.

currently at ailing's place, waiting for ailing to get ready before we make our way to sentosa for the beach party at TAS!!! haha.. and we just finished making the potato salad for tmr's SA gathering.. and YEAH!! it was a success.. haha.. i'll post up the picture of it soon.

i've decided not to pursue the matter anymore.. and i hope i can put it down without thinking about it again.. sometimes i just can't help but think about it when i'm alone, or stoning.. oh well. you can't really control your brain cells can you. if not why are we not able to remember the things we memorise for exams??!! haha..

btw, i just read that siti nurhaliza married the owner of takashimaya.. wth right.. so smart of her to marry a rich man. sigh.

"you look slimmer today" was a line said to me, something that i thought will brigthen up my day after the bad happenings of yesterday and today. the two papers were quite bad. ya.

Although i got very little confidence in my paper, thanks for all your help.

Although it happened 2 years ago, i'm suddenly disturbed by what i hear and see.

"Have You Ever"

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over

Knowing there's so much more to say

Suddenly the moment's gone

And all your dreams are upside down

And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry

Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together

Back in your arms where I belong

Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found

I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry

Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels

To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see

Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow

Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)

Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

just a thought. dun worry. it's nothing.

it was pouring this evening, and it gave me a reason to go late for work, not on purpose of course. while waiting for the rain to get less heavy, i observed a number of people and became envious of them. i do not have to know the background of the person. what matters most is that moment that you are spending with your love ones and yourself.

was serving at mahbubani's dinner just now. one of the guest was a survivor from the tsunami at Maldives. she shared her experience. and the funny thing is wad another guest said. she said if there can be architecture for earthquake, there can also be one for tsunami. then others ask how, and she reply, "we can consider convertible houses that can float on the water" wad a comment.

finally finished one paper... two more to go.. it was kinda like green day yesterday.. plus, i had to sleep and and still get up early to fetch wei sheng, clifton, alan and jonathan to sch. on the way to jonathan's place, alan played a joke by calling him and said, "hey john, we are going to be late, so you take cab and go sch yourself. we are on TPE already." it was super funny.. and you could guess his reaction.. "THIS IS NOT VERY NICE OF YOU ALL YOU KNOW!" haha.. sorry boss. btw, the time was 8.45am. no wonder the reaction. ;p

looking at the picture.. u should know what i mean.. hhaha...

the night before the paper, i went to rent a car, for the purpose of a product launch that was held in conrad. then, i was the chauffeur, went to pick alan, jonathan and junie for the event, AND, back home too..

the beautiful display of the wine glasses..

the car that i rented.. took it after i returned it.. talking about the inconvenience of not having a car.. but, petrol is damn ex!!

junie and i at the conrad event, waiting to get it and attack the wine and food.. haha.. btw, she's a HTM junior.. =>

after OB paper, mich, ailing and i went to waraku for lunch, then at night, we went to RJC to watch RI guitar emsemble concert.. well, guitars are hard to co-ordinate, so can't blame for the lack of cohesiveness.. omg, i guess OB is still kinda stuck in my head..

ailing at i at the atrium of RJC, waiting for my brother.. and my god, the ppl there are so hardworking la!! it was 10 plus at night and there were still a handful of ppl around the school, STUDYING. but then again, they are from RAFFLES. they are suppose to be hardworking, or be smart.. haha.. no offense.

back to the books soon, i mean to waraku.. to work... tata.

it's the week of study time.. for the last exam of the semester, and before my internship starts..

i'll be attached to the airport under Cathay Pacific, something that i have been looking forward to. i mean working in the airport. however, i cannot continue studying Jap during the internship period as it is a shift work thing. =<

heavy burden to clear my debt now. although debtors are not rushing me for the money, i feel really bad about it. dad is back for one week. but everyone seem to be too busy for a family gathering. (except for the first night when i didn't go to wok just to have dinner with the family)

the presentations done for this semesters with my beloved groupmates are my greatest pride. love you guys!! we should go out for another group's nightout ya??

and there was the night when a group of us went to watch the fireworks. too bad yi xiu couldn't join us.

and then there was another HTMIG AY04/05 gathering..

it's time to get back to my books...

okie.. okie.. i know.. april 3rd to now is a full 2 months and 6 days.. i shall update you guys with wadever pics that i have on hand now..

there was the Food and Hotel Asia during the first week of school where i worked for the US Meat Federation, for Mich's dad.. together with Mich, Lulu, celest, Karin, vanessa and Nelson, we had fun sweating moving the equipments, and smelling like sausages and bacon. (yes, we skipped school) haha.. had fun.. then went to be the guest diner for the Dream Team Challenge.. sat with this F&B mag editor.. so john and i had to be professional in our actions and words.. looking at the standards.. i believe SA will be able to send a team in with good practices put into it.. =)

in the month of may, everyone seem to be able to speak to anyone from our course.. of course, it's regarding SIP. seeing random people wearing formal wear, the feeling is worrying. worried about our own placement.. but after a few interviews, i chose Cathay Pacific. =)

then there was my cousin's wedding.. the bride is pretty.. and i heard that she's pregnant.. hmm..

my cousin (Andy Lau, yes that's his name..), his bride, and my family..

the female cousins, the ugly side.. and we were shouting "HUAT AH!!"

my sis and I !!

there was one night when john treated ailing and i to dinner at manhattan.. after which, we went to watch X MEN: THE LAST STAND!! the thing is.. we sat at the third row.. from the front.. oh well.. let's not talk about it..

and then... there was the dinner for which we celebrated our grandfather's birthday.. we had a great feast.. and you should have seen the birthday cake... it was in the shape of a huge 寿桃.. damn big.. and my mom and uncles were fighting to sing at the karaoke.. haha..

then it's my turn!! my birthday was spent with my family.. we went to keppel road to eat ba ku teh for breakfast.. that was with my mom, dad and brother.. but my dad had to go back to indo in the afternoon..

papa and i...

mama and i...

shawn and i...

then shawn and i went to the esplanade to watch RI's performing arts concert..

us at the esplanade...

just when i thought that it's another year when i'll have no cake.. i got a surprise from gayna, yin san, clifton, jeff, linda and nicholas.. thanks so much guys..

me making a wish.. with clifton at the background..

and then last saturday, karin, mich, ailing and i went to stay at Conrad.. ailing and i went to check in first and guess wad we did..

yes.. we took pics in the toilet...

on the bed..

another one on the bed.. emphasizing the size of the bed.. huge right!!

caught in action in the bathtub!!

it was an eye-opener... staying in a local hotel.. we went to TAMAKO.. at meridien shopping centre for dinner.. and we had a lot of cucumber and enoki maki.. hehe..

then yesterday night after our exams... ailing and i went on a "date"... we went to haagen dazs for dessert after dinner..

our first time trying out the fondue...

we had a great time... can see from our smiles right.. =)

the end product!!

yap.. in conclusion.. the time spent in my last year of studies in TP so far is quite fulfilling.. with so many friends standing by me.. thanks to all.. love ya..

it has been quite some time..

CAMERON/KL TRIP
be prepared for loads of pics coming your way.. haha..

the bus that took us all the way to cameron..

on board the bus.. ready for a sleeping ride!!

our "room" for the night...

our supper...

the location of our hotel..

us.. getting ready for our tour.. in our land rover...

posing with the asia's largest tea plantation..

breakfast.. (before)

breakfast... (after)

our land rover..

the result of trekking in these kinda footwear.. (i.e. the left one..)

cameron's mini waterfall..

(to be continued...)

today was quite a long day...

has SA meeting from 10am to 3.30pm.. had to come up with an important proposal. had quite a few issues that arised.. but i hope that all can be settled peacefully..

worked at the Cleo's Eligible Bachelors Party at the Ministry of Sound just now.. quite an interesting exposure for me.. was part of the catering team.. got to see the 50 guys.. in a rather surprising manner.. i was bringing a pile of food out of the VIP room.. then i was shocked by the 50 guys who were waiting outside the room.. and all were like eyeing on the food as i walk through them.. then after passing through, i thought i had missed my turn and walked back again.. then all the eyes on the food again.. then i realise that.. it's wrong again.. then i walked through them AGAIN.. and this time.. this guy ( i think it was michael leh) said stop tempting them with the food.. and i was like.. superly superly paiseh..

then in the crowd.. this another guy ( i think it was Tedric Ling) held my hand and passed me an empty beer bottle and said thanks.. i was like.. oh.. okie.. haha.. but overall it was funny.. and saw andy lee.. dressing was kinda off.. and mark zee.. okie looking only.. haha.. it was really an eye-opener for me tonight.. and the pay was not bad..

Our first SA event went quite smoothly, with a few hiccups here and there.. other than that.. all was fine.. thank all SA EXCO for making it a success..

scalded my hand last week while working.. till now.. it looks damn ugly.. sad..

something happened to my mom earlier this week.. and dad stayed for another 2 more days before leaving for indonesia again..

things and people changes over time.. and it's really nice to know that at least someone is still there to listen and talk to me when i'm feeling down and confused. thanks AL..

live with a clear conscience.. and that's wad i've been doing..

updates on life after the exams..

attended my brother's prefect investiture.. the setting was quite grand.. like in harry potter movie's school hall.. and the head master was telling us the story of Lord of the Rings.. and the finale, the singing to the melody of "under the sea"... oh well..

then met up with yixiu at TM to book the place for our "honeymoon" trip to cameron and KL in march.. had tepanyaki for dinner at TM.. and there was a cute looking chef working there.. haha.. bet yixiu had enough of me talking about him..

then on sat, we went to "tamako", a jap restaurant at orchard area after work.. with my colleagues.. at first all of us were concerned with our budget cos haven get pay.. but after that.. we began to relax and started to 'snatch' food..

now i wish i have a digital camera.. finepix would be a good choice..

with a digital cam.. i can capture all the fun times i have with everyone.. till then..

the pic above is the pic taken for my portfolio for my modelling job.. of course cannot be compared with those model models.. but at least it is another source of income for me..

i have been doing nothing much these few days.. except fetching my brother to and fro school on certain days.. watching tv the whole afternoon.. and working only at night.. except for thursday..

went to work at the STB award event.. was involved in the kitchen, being the runner for the different zones.. for 5.50 per hour.. we work like cows.. running up and down the different levels of the esplanade.. topping up the food at the different zones that were attacked by "beasts" the moment the food land on the table.. there was no drinking water for us.. and we couldn't use the lift for a period of time.. the crowd was overwhelming.. omg.. and all for 5.50.. haha.. soo ling and arthur and i kept harping on it.. but it was truly an experience, helping in the kitchen rather than the usual service.. and i got an SIA hairdo!! haha.. they even got makeup artist to do the makeup and hair for the service staff.. but we kitchen gals get to enjoy the benefit too.. yeah!! but ailing was having a hard time managing her "butterfly" hairdo that kept falling down.. haha.. but, i believed all of us had fun..

next week will be working marathon.. working full shift 3 out of the 5 days... but.. there's the SA meeting on monday to look forward to.. the bbq with HTM and HTB IG on wed.. and my dad's return on thurs!!

today's acc paper seems like a flop to me..

i thought i did okie.. until i realise there's quite a number of careless mistakes.. and it dampened my mood...

plus.. F&B coursework was not very good either.. that puts me in very stressful position to want to score for the paper to pull up the marks..

however, thanks to the pic from xueyun, and a little chit chat session with ailing.. i'm feeling a little better..

here's the pic xueyun sent to me.. just wanna share with all of u guys out there.. =)

xueyun, ailing and i, last week of sch at TAS

it's been some time isn't it?

dad came back a few days before CNY.. and there we are!! one whole family..

CNY 2006

i love this pic so.. proudly taken by our brother(on the far right).. good skill bro... and on the friday before CNY, all 5 of us went to bugis to watch "I NOT SUPID 2".. it's really nice to be able to watch a movie as a family, have dinner as a family.. do things as a family..

DAD's 51st birthday.. 2006

looking back.. we had quite a full reunion on CNY a few years back.. but this year.. some were in malaysia, some didn't come, some were in england..

CNY 2004

oh well.. at least this year i get to wear clothes that i bought for myself.. although it was done quite last minute.. and also i bought a pair of shoe that is of the same range as the one ailing bought!! yeah!!

and good news.. i passed my driving test on my first attempt!! it's a pity dad went back a few days earlier prior to my test date.. oh well.. at least i got his msg to congratulate me.. and.. mom allowed me to drive from the airport to my uncle's place for steamboat that very night!! the feeling is really different from being driven around.. and since then, i've been driving around, fetching my brother from sch.. fetching my sis to and fro the airport.. now i can't wait till dad comes back and drive him home from the airport!!

exams is just next week.. with 5 subjects all crammed in 4 days.. and one held at night..

till the end of the exams.. tata..

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!!

had fever and throat infection since thursday night.. and it lasted through the last min, last sec of 2005, and there i am, welcoming the arrival of 2006.

not a very nice way to start a new year.. but oh well..

got a bad news that my cousin's grandfather passed away.. and apparently, my mom is quite sadden by it.. she shared her story.. saying how much he has helped her when she was working for my grandfather and my cousin's grandfather.. how he increased her pay when my grandfather only gave her a small amt of money.. how much trust he had in her.. how supportive he has been towards my mom and my dad.. encouraging my dad to start a business on his own.. to the extend that she dun mind exchanging fathers.. and she cried..

the times that our parents had gone through.. seems like things that we can nv imagine..

next week is the first week of 2006, and is sch reopen week.. time passes really fast.. so fast that i didn't notice that it's time for new year resolution..

handed in one project, and 3 more to do..

had company dinner on the 23rd.. got slightly tipsy.. din enjoy it..

had christmas party at mr neo's place.. for the first time, i attended a party that is filled with the christmas atmosphere.. i really enjoyed myself and i'm sure ailing did too.. she and her chocolate flavoured tee really amused the whole lot of us that day.. to think the smell still stay after wash.. haha.. a great exposure for me..

i've finished all the modules for driving.. having revision lessons once a week now.. waiting for my test date to arrive on the 11th feb.. seems like a long time..

exams are over.. 2 subjects.. well.. no comments..

went out with ailing, mich, john and mr neo for k and dinner yesterday.. interesting khaki but oh well.. we enjoyed and that's all it matters..

and today.. finally.. the long awaited family dinner (without dad). we had dinner at the restaurant at kallang, after my STUMPED meeting, and after sis just touched down.. took pics.. and mom talked about the time when she was pregnant with sis.. how my grandma and aunt treated her.. the good and the bad times.. and the tough time she had gone through.. suddenly, i feel that a mother is really very noble.. overcoming all odds to deliver their duty as a mother.. then we went to bugis junction to shop.. bro bought a new bag.. so did a and sis.. i got a tee from espirit too.. all proudly sponsored by my great sis.. yeah! we are not close.. but the feelings is still there.. i want to be like others who can talk to my sis.. and share with her my problems and joy.. but i always take the oppurtunity to let her know more about the happenings of my life by talking to my brother in front of her.. well.. i guess it's obvious..

btw, i dyed my hair today.. at the waraku affiliated salon, "Cinderella". japanese stylist.. who attempt to chat with me in eng.. but lucky for my one yr plus working in waraku, i can roughly make out what he is trying to say and just laugh when he does. haha..

fifth week of sch... and i'm already so drained out..

moving towards Christmas, but somehow i dun seem to be able to get to the mood..

i've been quite active in this club called the Service Ambassador. the main thing that i've done so far is learn how to do set up for functions and also to teach others a little of wad i know.. not that i know a lot.. but, practice makes perfect.. right?

events that took place in my life for the past 3 weeks:
TP 15th anniversary musical <> (18/11)
we were late.. took a cab down.. got pang se by kai and nic.. took the furthest seat from the stage.. had to squat/kneel/ stand on the seats to see.. but good thing is we were the first to reach the food.. and boss and alex were networking all over.. funny sight.. great musical..

outing with sha and nelson (19/11)
can i call it an outing? met sha in the morning to meet the supplier for the IG tee.. got myself a sample of the colour and very happy about it. met nelson at little india, and yes, we were late.. and he was grumbling about it.. but then , he made a mistake too.. mustafa is near farrer park, not little india.. so we shopped and walked down the street, and i got myself 3 pen.. each for about 15 cents? and they are good.. yeah.. ate indian food for lunch and early dinner.. full..

movie with javin, nic and ailing (21-22/11)
suppose to watch harry potter with the 3 of them on mon, but ailing last min working, and i dun wanna leave her out.. so got dragged to watch emily rose.. using my chef jacket as my blind, i manage to survive the movie with only 1/8 of the screen visible to me.. haha..
then on tuesday all 4 of us went to watch harry potter.. but all thanks to the 2 guys, we got the 2nd row seats from the front.. not too bad.. but i guess javin had a good time listening to me making fun of the people in the movie.. oops..

busy thursday (24/11)
drving lesson from 830-1010am, rush to TP to join my group for meeting which's suppose to start at 9am, then back to TAS for suzuki coffee party (it's actually a focus group), SA meeting from 5-6pm.. (which dragged.. as usual) and then at night drinking with john, belinda, justin and mr neo at chill bar.. phew..

k at mr neo's place cum supper at jap restaurant (26/11)
met john, belinda, pam and ailing at the interchange before making our way to mr neo's house.. funny thing is, john told us to board the bus, but he himself din, and in the end he took a cab there and still arrive later than us.. haha.. joke of the day.. mr neo's kids are cute.. playing with each other liks cats.. haha.. thanks mr neo for the wine.. cheers.
yue xiang's birthday.. yukari san and khoo san treat us to jap food at this restaurant in a hotel in Orchard.. a few dishes and it add up to $500++.. wow.. for 8 ppl, without any sake or any alcoholic drinks.. ex..

k with waraku staff (28/11)
got our pay the day before.. and brenen long ago planned this.. but, money matters, kinda reluctant to go.. but in the end when for supper with them.. and sand 10 songs, 3 mugs of tiger before i can leave.. and is not drink.. is gulp it down ur throat at one go.. i'm not a good drinker.. seriously..

driving lesson (29/11)
the same instructor that taught me lane change.. i think. and this time, taught me parallel parking.. good thing i din hit the poles.. and mr lawrence kinda like regarded me as his 'daughter'? and went to tell this instructor to take care of me.. honoured.. haha..

work at private residence (1/12)
mahbubani residence.. apparently he was the diplomat for Singapore in the UN and currently is the Dean of the Lee Kwan Yew School of Public Policy at the NUS. woah.. big shot.. and i din know who he was until the maids told me.. haha.. cool house.. nice maids.. good food.. good pay..

CNA filming (2/12)
just an extra.. pretending to be taking instructions from this HTB gal, who is suppose to be my manager.. cool huh.. not like it's the first time or something.. but.. something new for a change.. instead of nerve wrecking interviews..

trial cooking cum a lie (3/12)
went to see the IG tee supplier again.. and made the order.. then went to sylvie's house for our culinary trial cooking.. tried a couple of things.. but somehow getting the mis en place is already super time consuming.. then i burn myself.. ok.. out of the point.
then just as i was about to leave for work, cleo called, asking me to replace her at mahbubani's.. considering the pros and cons.. i told a lie to waraku and went to work at the latter. good decision, for i got to serve MM Mr Lee and Mrs Lee.. nice people.. polite.. curious about young people like me.. asking about the education i'm taking now.. lifestyle and so on.. the 2 of them.. on my list of people that i look up to..

last but not least.. (today)
culinary proficiency test.. was okie.. i thought i did okie.. although the potato suck.. wth.. then hang around at the MUTS booth with mich.. then studied for acc.. but fell asleep half of the time.. then accounting test.. let's not talk about it shall we..?
was expecting like a family dinner tonight.. now that dad's back.. but.. ma went out singing.. and then dad and all had late lunch.. so my plan kinda fall out.. oh well.. parents and shawn going to malaysia till friday.. so i can't have that long awaited dinner till then i guess.. weekends working, monday driving.. i wonder when will i get to fulfil that wish.. it's the same wish everytime dad comes back.. wish me luck for this week.. as i struggle through my jap presentation, lodging project. looking forward to the group dinner on fri.. let's celebrate!!