HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!!

had fever and throat infection since thursday night.. and it lasted through the last min, last sec of 2005, and there i am, welcoming the arrival of 2006.

not a very nice way to start a new year.. but oh well..

got a bad news that my cousin's grandfather passed away.. and apparently, my mom is quite sadden by it.. she shared her story.. saying how much he has helped her when she was working for my grandfather and my cousin's grandfather.. how he increased her pay when my grandfather only gave her a small amt of money.. how much trust he had in her.. how supportive he has been towards my mom and my dad.. encouraging my dad to start a business on his own.. to the extend that she dun mind exchanging fathers.. and she cried..

the times that our parents had gone through.. seems like things that we can nv imagine..

next week is the first week of 2006, and is sch reopen week.. time passes really fast.. so fast that i didn't notice that it's time for new year resolution..

handed in one project, and 3 more to do..

had company dinner on the 23rd.. got slightly tipsy.. din enjoy it..

had christmas party at mr neo's place.. for the first time, i attended a party that is filled with the christmas atmosphere.. i really enjoyed myself and i'm sure ailing did too.. she and her chocolate flavoured tee really amused the whole lot of us that day.. to think the smell still stay after wash.. haha.. a great exposure for me..

i've finished all the modules for driving.. having revision lessons once a week now.. waiting for my test date to arrive on the 11th feb.. seems like a long time..

exams are over.. 2 subjects.. well.. no comments..

went out with ailing, mich, john and mr neo for k and dinner yesterday.. interesting khaki but oh well.. we enjoyed and that's all it matters..

and today.. finally.. the long awaited family dinner (without dad). we had dinner at the restaurant at kallang, after my STUMPED meeting, and after sis just touched down.. took pics.. and mom talked about the time when she was pregnant with sis.. how my grandma and aunt treated her.. the good and the bad times.. and the tough time she had gone through.. suddenly, i feel that a mother is really very noble.. overcoming all odds to deliver their duty as a mother.. then we went to bugis junction to shop.. bro bought a new bag.. so did a and sis.. i got a tee from espirit too.. all proudly sponsored by my great sis.. yeah! we are not close.. but the feelings is still there.. i want to be like others who can talk to my sis.. and share with her my problems and joy.. but i always take the oppurtunity to let her know more about the happenings of my life by talking to my brother in front of her.. well.. i guess it's obvious..

btw, i dyed my hair today.. at the waraku affiliated salon, "Cinderella". japanese stylist.. who attempt to chat with me in eng.. but lucky for my one yr plus working in waraku, i can roughly make out what he is trying to say and just laugh when he does. haha..

fifth week of sch... and i'm already so drained out..

moving towards Christmas, but somehow i dun seem to be able to get to the mood..

i've been quite active in this club called the Service Ambassador. the main thing that i've done so far is learn how to do set up for functions and also to teach others a little of wad i know.. not that i know a lot.. but, practice makes perfect.. right?

events that took place in my life for the past 3 weeks:
TP 15th anniversary musical <> (18/11)
we were late.. took a cab down.. got pang se by kai and nic.. took the furthest seat from the stage.. had to squat/kneel/ stand on the seats to see.. but good thing is we were the first to reach the food.. and boss and alex were networking all over.. funny sight.. great musical..

outing with sha and nelson (19/11)
can i call it an outing? met sha in the morning to meet the supplier for the IG tee.. got myself a sample of the colour and very happy about it. met nelson at little india, and yes, we were late.. and he was grumbling about it.. but then , he made a mistake too.. mustafa is near farrer park, not little india.. so we shopped and walked down the street, and i got myself 3 pen.. each for about 15 cents? and they are good.. yeah.. ate indian food for lunch and early dinner.. full..

movie with javin, nic and ailing (21-22/11)
suppose to watch harry potter with the 3 of them on mon, but ailing last min working, and i dun wanna leave her out.. so got dragged to watch emily rose.. using my chef jacket as my blind, i manage to survive the movie with only 1/8 of the screen visible to me.. haha..
then on tuesday all 4 of us went to watch harry potter.. but all thanks to the 2 guys, we got the 2nd row seats from the front.. not too bad.. but i guess javin had a good time listening to me making fun of the people in the movie.. oops..

busy thursday (24/11)
drving lesson from 830-1010am, rush to TP to join my group for meeting which's suppose to start at 9am, then back to TAS for suzuki coffee party (it's actually a focus group), SA meeting from 5-6pm.. (which dragged.. as usual) and then at night drinking with john, belinda, justin and mr neo at chill bar.. phew..

k at mr neo's place cum supper at jap restaurant (26/11)
met john, belinda, pam and ailing at the interchange before making our way to mr neo's house.. funny thing is, john told us to board the bus, but he himself din, and in the end he took a cab there and still arrive later than us.. haha.. joke of the day.. mr neo's kids are cute.. playing with each other liks cats.. haha.. thanks mr neo for the wine.. cheers.
yue xiang's birthday.. yukari san and khoo san treat us to jap food at this restaurant in a hotel in Orchard.. a few dishes and it add up to $500++.. wow.. for 8 ppl, without any sake or any alcoholic drinks.. ex..

k with waraku staff (28/11)
got our pay the day before.. and brenen long ago planned this.. but, money matters, kinda reluctant to go.. but in the end when for supper with them.. and sand 10 songs, 3 mugs of tiger before i can leave.. and is not drink.. is gulp it down ur throat at one go.. i'm not a good drinker.. seriously..

driving lesson (29/11)
the same instructor that taught me lane change.. i think. and this time, taught me parallel parking.. good thing i din hit the poles.. and mr lawrence kinda like regarded me as his 'daughter'? and went to tell this instructor to take care of me.. honoured.. haha..

work at private residence (1/12)
mahbubani residence.. apparently he was the diplomat for Singapore in the UN and currently is the Dean of the Lee Kwan Yew School of Public Policy at the NUS. woah.. big shot.. and i din know who he was until the maids told me.. haha.. cool house.. nice maids.. good food.. good pay..

CNA filming (2/12)
just an extra.. pretending to be taking instructions from this HTB gal, who is suppose to be my manager.. cool huh.. not like it's the first time or something.. but.. something new for a change.. instead of nerve wrecking interviews..

trial cooking cum a lie (3/12)
went to see the IG tee supplier again.. and made the order.. then went to sylvie's house for our culinary trial cooking.. tried a couple of things.. but somehow getting the mis en place is already super time consuming.. then i burn myself.. ok.. out of the point.
then just as i was about to leave for work, cleo called, asking me to replace her at mahbubani's.. considering the pros and cons.. i told a lie to waraku and went to work at the latter. good decision, for i got to serve MM Mr Lee and Mrs Lee.. nice people.. polite.. curious about young people like me.. asking about the education i'm taking now.. lifestyle and so on.. the 2 of them.. on my list of people that i look up to..

last but not least.. (today)
culinary proficiency test.. was okie.. i thought i did okie.. although the potato suck.. wth.. then hang around at the MUTS booth with mich.. then studied for acc.. but fell asleep half of the time.. then accounting test.. let's not talk about it shall we..?
was expecting like a family dinner tonight.. now that dad's back.. but.. ma went out singing.. and then dad and all had late lunch.. so my plan kinda fall out.. oh well.. parents and shawn going to malaysia till friday.. so i can't have that long awaited dinner till then i guess.. weekends working, monday driving.. i wonder when will i get to fulfil that wish.. it's the same wish everytime dad comes back.. wish me luck for this week.. as i struggle through my jap presentation, lodging project. looking forward to the group dinner on fri.. let's celebrate!!

yeah. got my group settled.. janice, linda, caroline and alan.. i'm happy with the arrangement.. was so relief that during the choosing of the "star", our group manage to stay as one.. and we are called "work hard".. and we got ourselves a volunteering secretary.. ms linda yang.. *cheers*

i'm feeling much better now.. after having some time alone.. but.. i'm sad to see my savings depleting at a rate that is quite unexpected... target to get it all back by.. march.. all back..

i'm the class rep of the class this sem.. how? all thanks to mr revi nair.. and his funny tactic of choosing.. holding a highlighter above the pic of the class.. with linda shifting the paper.. he dropped the highlighter.. and there.. my name was higlighted. and.. i'm also the group leader of work hard..

today is kinda like a loner day.. going to lectures alone.. to class at least there's still alan sitting next to me almost all the time so far in tutorials.. then it was so last min that i decide to go for a drink with mr D***** first time i've very been to a bar.. sua ku right.. well.. that's the way i am.. he treated to dinner at this really old place that is around since 1940.. and it is so olden style.. then went over to the chill bar to chill out.. (duh..) the place has a nice atmosphere.. nice music.. observant staff.. ( they came over to open another bottle of beer for me as soon as a finished one) FYI, we order a bucket of 5 heiniken bottles.. ya.. chatted quite a bit.. and somehow it went to the topic of BGR.. it will also be part of any kind of conversation huh.. oh well..

think tonight is the night that i really relaxed and chill out so far.. after so many nights of school, work, IG, driving.. time for me to do the things that i want to do.. thanks mr D*****...

how come i seem to be busier than i thought i will be this new sem? the start of a new semester has never been so busy and packed for me so far.. and the earliest that i reached home since last mon (the first day of sch) is 930pm..

work.. driving.. sch.. ig.. SA.. suddenly i'm so involved in so many things.. not that i'm complaining but perhaps i'm just not used to it? i dunno.. perhaps i'm just giving myself the stress and pressure unneccessarily..

yesterday was such an unlucky day.. the 2nd monday of the semester, the 2nd culinary lesson, and i cut my finger.. not once.. but twice.. and in a very super short interval of.. less than 1 minute.. it must be the fever.. was laughing at my situation.. and crying silently.. making use of the laugh to cry.. funny huh.. but it was painful la.. ( duh!! )

and then i left SA meeting late.. so i boarded the bus to CDC late.. and so i was late for driving, having to alight the bus halfway thru the journey (somewhere that i dunno) due to the super heavy traffic jam and took a cab.. with only 6.30 with me.. the fare came up to be 10 over bucks.. and i just gave the uncle all that i have..

after the driving lesson, wanted to go to the toilet, but i need 10 cents.. without a single cents on me, with no ATM machine around.. i felt so shagged.. carrying my super big bag with my safety shoes and culi uniform in it.. plus my knife set.. luckily i met my instructor who told the ah ne that i'm his friend, and i get to use the toilet for free.. then went going home, i couldn't find my ez link card.. it was somewhere hidden deep within the mess in my bag.. for that moment i thought i lost it and i will have to walk home.. but thank god i found it..

wad a day huh.. well.. life's like this..

and for today.. i went to sch for 4 hrs of tutorial straight.. dry but i made the effort to be attentive and listen in class.. i want to improve myself.. i felt so betrayed when i heard that arrangment of my group members has changed.. i thought it was somewhat confirmed.. now i've a bad feeling that i'm gonna have to get those people that i really dun wanna work with in my group... with this.. i guess there goes my confidence and morale to buck up for this semester.. F***...

and then there was the tourism ambassador interview thing.. ms daga said something about putting up an act.. that really triggered me off.. i couldn't control myself.. i just couldn't.. i went thru this issue with nic b4... and i thought it's kinda over.. but then i realised it today that it hasn't... has been already feeling quite down cos of the grouping thing.. as in really down.. and that sentence just had to come on the same day..

it's ok.. i guess.. time will heal it all.. hopefully..

found an excuse to not be called back to work on my off day..

went to marina square waraku to have dinner with my brother.. saw tim.. actually i already knew he was there cos yukari said he went back.. that's why they are short of one person to work tonight.. oh well.. all planned.. if i was not called back, i would have went to katong to eat instead of MS..

slacked at home.. listening to jay.. guess so far he is the one that i will really look for when i'm really down.. his song will without fail cheer me up a little.. feel so relaxed.. without any thing restraining me from doing the things i wanna do.. not like i did anything extreme.. just bringing my brother out to town..

guess i was really in a bad shape.. to break 1 red wine glass and a drinking glass in a row in a night.. a little glass chip entered my toe.. can't see it... but can't feel it as well..

i passed my final paper.. with a lot of worries i must say.. cos i din really prepared much and din do well for my trial test.. well, it's over anyway..

ya... i guess it's really over.. from the way things are going.. from the response i get.. i can feel it drifting away from me.. did i make a mistake? sometimes i wonder.. why am i so indecisive.. or maybe i should say, why is it so hard to know wad your heart is thinking..

my heart literally sank.. do u know? although i dun show it.. but who can understand?

i feel like i've just lost someone that i can bare my heart out to.. i tried to initiate the salvation.. and i'm still waiting for some response..

i'm feeling miserable.. drowning myself in work.. and beer.. i'm surprised by my own behaviour.. so dun ask me anything.. i still know wad i'm doing.. dun worry..

really dun worry.. just give me some time..

dad, mom, sis.. all in hongkong.. brother? in singapore.. but dunno where he is.. wasn't in the house when i woke up.. and i am all alone.. nvm.. used to it le..

niwae.. mark chay visited my workplace yesterday... look a bit plumper than on tv.. but oh well, who doesn't change?

Wad a day.. has been trying to fill each and every available free time for the past few days to take me away from thinking about troubling matters.. and so, I bury myself in work, driving, bus work, jap.. etc..

And so.. I passed my jap.. congrats to me.. I'm able to move on to elementary 2.. wow.. great progress right..

And so.. I had my first driving practical lesson yesterday.. as wad everyone would say, the feeling of being behind the wheels is great.. and fun of course.. I believed I can do well.. until today..

Is me or just me.. my left leg seem to be super stiff when driving.. so is my right leg but better than the left.. I dun dare to step too much.. maybe becos if my past knee injury.. or maybe it's just b'cos I'm too nervous..

Felt really lousy about it.. with my mom going on and on about wad I should take note and all, I silently tear as my mom was fetching me back to work from CDC.. for ur info, I went for lesson during my break while working.. ya..

My brother got his results for his papers back.. all As, except English B… but overall is an A.. when my mom praised him, I wanted very much to just walk away.. it seem like I'll nv be able to get that kind of praise from her..

My mind is all mixed up with different kinds of things going on in there.. I'm trying to let things go the way it should be naturally… but somehow I just can't help thinking if I made the wrong decision…

Went for a haircut with ailing on fri.. thin it.. and shortened my fringe.. my head feels so much lighter.. and maybe most of the troubles have is lightened too.. it might be me consoling myself.. but who cares.. it's me..

I would nv have expected myself to come to this stage of my life.. where I'll be doing lots of things.. spending time enriching myself, enriching my life.. but then again.. wad am I doing all these for? Who am I doing all this for… I dun even know the ans myself..

Chaos, my friend..

so filled with emotions these few days.. went to be bus jie jie again on sat, fetching korean kids.. so cute!! and they are so talkative.. gosh.. can ask me to show u the pics if u see me in person!! haha..

then went to my mom's eldest sister house to visit her husband, which is also my uncle.. he got a stroke not long ago but he seems to be getting better.. it was his birthday and relatives from my mom's side all gathered at his house to celebrate for him.. only the left side of his body is able to move... he can make noises like 'ah' and 'huh', but other than that, his words are all slurred.. but from his eyes, i could tell that he still knows wad's going on around him.. when he held my hand, his eyes started to fill with tears.. seeing him like that, my eyes begin to water too.. he can walk with the help of his walking stick, he can eat by himself, and he cried a no. of times, but i guess it's all because he's touched..

he tried to tell me about his therapies.. and i figured he said something about the fierce therapists and then he started to cry.. feel so sad for him..

anyway, i bought the full house vcd!! watching the last episode, felt so blessed for the two of them.. after so much obstacles, so much.. they finally are together.. cried so much man.. my brother said i can use up a whole box of tissue watching the whole set.. haha.. say so much, he also got cry lo... but it's really touching..

had mac for breakfast yesterday... saw on advertisement.. and asked my brother if he wants.. haha.. but i think my mom took money from my wallet to pay.. =( nvm.. at least i get to eat SME meal!! yeah..

when will it ever happen to me?

din really do much these days, except to work and work and work.. but other than work.. there are of course some leisure time...

i spent the whole of tuesday's late afternoon with ailing.. chatting about the things that happened, and also the things that are going to happen.. haha.. saw the price of the full house vcd.. and it's only 34.90!! although it's 'only', but i still gotta save for it.. hmm.. money..

spent almost the whole day with my mom yesterday.. went to take a look at the newly set-up bus service company that she has.. woke up early in the morning and went to find the bus driver.. then off we went to fetch the kindergarten kids.. so cute!! gosh.. and they all has this angmoh english accent.. cos most of them are mixed blood.. and they kept calling me!! at least they din call me auntie.. haha..

there was this gal called ciara who lived in Nassim Park, and it reminded me of the monopoly game that i played during the retreat.. and that place really is wad it is worth... there are so many ambassies around there like the jap ambassy.. haha.. although i dun own the place ( in the game of monopoly), i get to visit the place!! yeah!

my job was actually to sit with the kids at the back of the bus and help them up and down the bus, and also to help fasten their seatbelts.. at least i din scare any kids this time... all of them are looking forward to seeing me again soon!! hhaha.. looks like the change in mood really can change a person.. and i learn to understand the passion that my mom has towards this business now.. =)

i'm still looking forward to school reopen, and see if there's any changes in the people in TAS, as well as the members in my class..

finally, back with more updates.. haha..

busy working, trying to earn more money to pay for my driving lessons.. draining me out man.. then there's the IG retreat..

went home after work to pack my bag.. and within 25 mins, i got my bag packed, bathed and got out of my house to wait for the bus.. reached the bus stop just in time to board it.. but mich hasn't reached her bus stop yet.. so i had to miss the bus and take the next next bus which is 20 mins later... in the end took the bus with mich and crystal to pasir ris and chiong to buy drinks and brush for the butter then rush to catch the 6.15pm shuttle bus to aloha loyang..

waited... waited.. waited...

in the end, we took a cab in.. and the stupid driver said he know but actually he dunno.. the ALOHA LOYANG sign so big he still nv see and continue to drive straight.. until i had to like tell him off like.. wth... he said he dunno where's costa sands also.. then how he become driver man.. well, in the end we realised that crystal got the wrong time from vanessa and the time of the shuttle bus is suppose to be 6.45pm.. hhaha..

changed into some comfy clothes before joining the guys at the bbq pit.. was busy bbq-ing for people, until when everyone was watching tv (except sam and shawn), then we increase the power of the fire and then i got to eat all the nice food!! haha.. stingray with sambal chilli.. heavenly.. went to swim at around 9 plus after the pool is closed, and got chased out of the pool at around ten plus.. went back and then not long after, gavin came.. yeah.. with british vodka.. drank a bit.. and avril got all red.. so did crystal.. lu-anne was high too.. haha.. playing monopoly and laughing at gavin's orange tee.. haha.. chatted on the phone with ailing.. haha.. at least she accompanied me thru the lonely night as i was kinda bored.. so much to update each other although it has only been a short while since we last met each other..

went back to my room and chatted with avril and crystal and shawn.. and sam joined us a while later to hide from the crazy group of people outsied.. namely: michelle, gavin, vanessa and lu-anne.. i think jean was happily sleeping away.. haha..

the next day avril and i rented bike and rode out to white sands ntuc to grab some apples.. haha.. in the end we bought apples and grapes and chips more.. and got the canadian pizza gal to look after our bike for us.. then when riding back, we didn't watch out for cars.. riding back as fast as we could.. haha.. damn funny.. then went to play monopoly with sam and vanessa while lu-anne, shawn, gavin and avril went to sleep.. yes.. it was mid afternoon.. and i had lots of houses and money!! yeah!! hhaha.. we only cooked lunch at around 4 plus.. after eating.. it was meeting time.. sam, vanessa and jean left in the evening.. sad.. only got 2 sub com left.. but nevertheless, we still had fun, with boon kiat joining us in the late afternoon.. yeah..

ordered mac for dinner and then watched amazing race while avril, gavin and i played hopscotch.. bring back childhood memories huh.. played monopoly with crystal, gavin and boon kiat.. with lu-anne playing songs with shawn's speaker.. haha.. then it got boring and we played heart attack then played tai tee.. got kinda boring too.. so we decided to go to the pool!! swam for a while.. thinking about lots of things.. then went to talk to lu-anne.. she isn't as bad as everyone thought she will be afterall, told her something that very little know about me.. haha.. well, although it was a short chat, i seem to know her a lot better.. went back.. and nic called.. another person to accompany thru the lonely night..

checking out time.. everyone was so slow.. including the staff.. that we missed out bus out, except for boon and mich... in the end gavin, crystal and i met them at tampines BK then went for K-lunch.. it was like a main com bonding session and i really enjoyed myself.. not forgetting the full-of-emotion singing with boon kiat.. haaha.. yeah..

well, all i can say it that i really enjoyed myself a lot.. those IG members who were not there, too bad, you missed out all the fun.. kinda disappointed that the turnout was as such, but well, they lose out, not us, right?? ;P

dad's back!! and i've cleared one thing on my to do list.. which is to have a family meal.. had dinner on tuesday evening at one of the coffeshop near my house.. had one of my favourite fishhead steamboat.. love the soup..

last fri was quite an experience at the SATS catering centre.. being part of the WINERS team.. haha.. and standing in our heels from 6pm to 1am.. gosh.. and also first time taking instructions from angmohs.. can see a lot of lost faces on my fellow schoolmates' face.. haha.. there were a few hiccups here and there.. sending in the wines too early.. having plates smashed on the floor.. (oops.., but it's not me.. ) but love the experience..

we got a new group of sub com joining us in the IG.. and i believe the IG will be more lively than before cos of the 3 Ss.. haha.. had dinner on sat with these 3Ss, and a few others at MS waraku.. love the atmosphere.. with the right ppl to lift the mood up..

on my way to the 2nd phase of learning driving.. which is taking the final theory paper.. i passed my basic theory paper and spent some more money on my provisional driving license.. sigh.. i've nv felt so desperate for money before.. still looking for job.. but thanks to vanessa for introducing that job to me.. love ya..

life seem to be filled with things that keep me busy all the time.. without any time for me to think about anything else that will pull my mood down.. i hope that this will continue, and hopefully the pain in my heart will slowly die off unknowingly..

i'm trying to be like Su Yi.. look at things the optimistic side, and being so open in giving up the guy she likes but thinks they are not meant to be.. and hopefully i can do it.. however for me, i have to open up, to accept things the way it should be..

had quite a tiring day walking the streets of orchard today with xueyun... plus, i woke up early today to attend this briefing in RI regarding my brother's subject selection.. as it ended early, i walked around junction 8 for close to 2 hours before making my way to somerset..

actually i had to work in the afternoon today.. but due to the last min notice of the briefing.. i was not allowed to change shift with sky but to give my shift to him.. sad.. lost a chance to make more money..

well, sad things aside.. we went to have lunch at this place where all the staff look like they just came out of jail and are very polite.. and the food is not bad and is considered cheap!! 5 bucks for a pasta meal inclusive of a soup, watermelon and salad.. haha.. went to shop at OG Orchard Point and got myself the largest polo tee from giordano junior.. and it fits me!! haha... tried on this skirt from OP... but too bad last piece and it's dirty.. so i'm still trying to look for the skirt elsewhere... shopped there for close to 2 hours.. then went over to specialist centre.. then over to hereen..

at hereen.. guess who i spotted??!! weichoong and derrick from project superstar!! weichoong was wearing this black hat with a white towel wrapped under the hat.. i spotted the hat first on 4th level.. then saw the hat again on 5th level.. so i took an extra look.. then he walked past me quite closely as it was crowded.. then i said to xueyun: "that's weichoong leh!! that's weichoong.." and i din realise that the people around me started to look at the direction that i was looking at.. haha.. then turn out that derrick who is rather short was with weichoong all along and i din notice him until a while later.. haha.. then we pretend to be looking at things in 77th street.. and they were behind us, trying out cap.. haha.. damn funny...

after hereen next stop was takashimaya.. then wisma.. it has really been a long time since i last walked and window shop so much and so long... the last time i guess was with wanshi after prelims... memories..

guess i found a friend that share some similarities with me.. same shoe size.. same waist size.. same taste..

read a book at polular today.. it's called betty and veronica best friends forever... u know.. the archie comics... ya.. that betty and veronica.. in that book, they mentioned that it's good to have more than one best friend.. when u fall out with one, there's always another one to seek for consolence.. and also, u can be have a friend to talk to, but she might not be the one that u can go out with as interest differs.. i guess it's the advantage of having more than one close friend.. and i'm lucky i got 3..

the bbq at downtown east was quite an enjoyable one.. was kinda awkward at first.. cos i forgot most of their names... oops.. haha.. so i went up to the room.. and there, i felt more relaxed with juana around.. haha.. we watched the jap show . then the stupid variety show by the jack neo family then the erie 9pm show.. and lastly.. the incredible incredible tales.. waha..

enjoyed all the chat we had on the bed.. next to the bbq pit.. haha.. all thanks to the 'show' put up by fook ping, xavier and peilin.. haha.. somehow, the world is so small.. ariel is wanshi's cousin, juana is nelson's sister.. guess it's fate that i was this class's SL... i'm actually quite surprised that my friendship with juana and fook ping is like as if i've known them for a long time... hmm...

i have thought through a couple of things these few days.. and i have come up with a conclusion: to take things in my stride...

as usual, there's bound to be biaseness in a family.. in terms of the present u get for your birthday, or the kind of remarks u get from ur family.. it kinda becomes a part and parcel of life that it's so hard for me not to let it blend into my life..

stayed overnight at xueyun's place on saturday night with ailing.. suppose to take ting's car to harbourfront for terry fox run together on sunday.. but the lazy bum didn't want to go last min and so just ailing and i took a cab down to ting's place early morning.. while on the expressway ting's mom was talking about rain and the next min, the rain came pouring down.. and it din stop full till after the event.. was caught in the rain while walking to the beach carpark.. it was kinda chaotic and i was forced to do things that i din want to do.. hmm.. well.. it's over.. wad can i say.. just that i dun like ppl to assume things.. something that i always tell nicholas about..

met shaidah at parkway after terry fox yesterday.. had a long talk about that has happened lately.. well, guess so much things has changed that it's kinda hard to believe right??

it always happen to me huh.. raining just when i am about to go for work or when i'm on my way.. the latter is worse, esp when i nv bring umbrella.. and it happened to me today.. so, i ran in the rain and caught a flu.. plus the rain encounter i had yesterday.. i had a hard time controlling my sneeze while working.. lucky it didn't last too long.. and i'm well again!! yeah..

going for a bbq cum class gathering of 1H10 later.. i was their SL during the week zero orientation and kinda touched that they still remember me till now.. well, nelson's sister is in that class plus that cheeky class rep.. it's kinda hard for me to forget them either.. but kinda guilty.. cos forgot some of their names le.. oops.. it's very heart-warming when they crowd over me when they see me during movies under the stars.. when i saw them at terry fox run briefing.. kinda feel like their mother. haha.. they also say that..

things come and go.. so do friends.. but i certainly hope things will be the same as in the past.. i will reflect.. i hope u will too..