i've got some news from china.. and really wanted to share this with my close friends.. but when i wanna do so, i realise that there isn't many that i can look for.. everyone seems to be busy with sch, work and their own life..

realise that it mght have been a problem of my own, that i've not contacted my friends for quite some time.. and this is probably wad they call a shell syndrome.. staying at home on my off days.. not going out with friends.. spending time alone..

watched a serial on tv.. this gal suffered from cancer.. and she forced herself to leave the guy she loves because she dun wanna burden him, dun want him to embark on the painful journey with her.. wants him to forget her and find someone who can give him happiness. all these happens because she's not confident that the guy loves her enough to stand by her through thick and thin.. and will still be there for her when she's ill.. wad he said to her really touched me..

"even if i were to lose u one day, i'd have had the most wonderful memories..."

putting myself in her shoe.. i'm really touched.. tears rolled down my cheeks uncontrollably.. it's weird how i've always imagine myself contracting some weird illness.. and how i'll deal with it.. to tell or not to tell my close friends... how to release the news to my loved one.. whether i'll do the same as wad the gal in the serial did..

anyway.. chatted with michelle earlier today and realise we're both facing similar problems.. really dunno wad i can do for her.. but all i can do is pray for all my close friends, hope they'll get the happiness that they deserve. she shared this song with me... and i'm beginning to like it too.. i'll share with u guys here..

tonight i wanna cry.. by keith urban..

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

(Chorus:)
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

i know that it's been a really long time since i last blogged. and i know it's been a really long time since i last posted pictures.. i really do apologise for the inconsistent updates here..

many things have happened, in work, in sch, in friendship, in relationship, in life.

and i for once, have felt a real disappointment, and i felt that i've grown up to be a understanding gal, and i'm really proud to be one actually.

one may thing i'm crazy, but i like wad i'm doing now and i like who i am for my friends. my family, and my loved one.

recently, days passed without my knowledge... time seem to pass so fast, but yet days are ironically long when i'm alone.

just a post to let all my friends who havent seen or heard from me know that i'm fine, busy with work and studies, and i havent forgotten any one of u at all.

i will update my blog soon, when i have more time to myself...