It has been a whole different feeling and experience I've gone through for the past 2 months...

I met someone new, and that changed my life. He made me feel nothing like I've felt before. He made me feel I'm important, I'm beautiful, i'm wanted, I'm worthy to be loved and most importantly, I can totally be myself when I'm with him.

But things are complicated.. And many many things seems to be obstacles in front of us, his ex gf, my job, but the most crucial obstacle was actually my own heart. It's irritating when I get insecure for nothing... And it has really taken a toll on me for a few days..

But I overcame it. I told myself, I really wanna make this work, and with my job, it doesn't help at all to be thinking too much all the time. And I told myself, he'll appreciate the trust I put in him..

So, I feel different now that I cleared the stupid irritating feeling in me. I feel a lot more optimistic, that things will work out between us.

Some may say, we got together too fast. To me, given another chance, i'd still take the same route and choose to be with him. Why? I dun regret my decision at all, cos if we din get together then, we might never have gotten together, and I may never know how much I can give in a relationship, and I may never know how much I can gain out of one too..

Really thankful I've met him, thankful that he came into my life, even though it's in such an unexpected way, but it's definitely a challenge for me to do my best to fight for my future.. And fight for the one I want, and I need.