sorry for the absence.. have been busy with friends, family and flts...

let me update u guys one by one..

21st.. zifu's social night.. it's different from the previous one that i have been to, and it was very nice of him to pick me up from singapore casket and i feel the pain for him when the fare went up to close to 40 bucks.. ouch. there, met many ppl, see some familiar faces, new faces.. but i thought it's quite an eye opener to get to see the place my brother is staying.. cool..brother acting cute..
macho marcus..
ex classamate..
surprising to see her here.. belinda..
my cx internmate and her bf, zifu's section mate.. small world.
my secondary school classmate!!
zifu's secondary sch friends..
us in orchard road!! haha..

thanks for inviting me to be ur date, honoured and happy.. thanks for the gift as well..

22nd: manila turn. got back expecting a dinner with my family, but seems like the plan was spoilt without full attendance.. but manage to fulfil the plan of k-ing with my sis and her friend at party world.. first time k-ing with her.. felt so nice to be able to sit next to her, hear her sing, sing with her, and i seriously enjoyed myself. somehow the feeling is different from the other k sessions i have with my friends.

23rd: meeting at conrad.. and i got an assignment to do. damn. bought a puzzle for ailing for xmas.. and i did it before she came and meet karin and i. stress period for the 1 and 1/2 hours, and lucky she was late.. haha..after dinner at waraku..
the end product of the puzzle.. hope u'll like it babe..
look wad bel got for me from beijing.. thanks dear..

24th: got called up for a manila nightstop.. yes. manila again.. which means, count down to christmas in the hotel room alone.. heard popping sound coming from outside the hotel... the ppl were crowding on the roads, fire crackers everywhere.. wad a jolly season for them..

25th: came back, changed and met the taiwan gang and kai. wouldn't want to miss any minute to spend special moments with my loved ones.. thought of having a family dinner, but mom's out, sis's off to paris.. so plan disrupted again. had lunch at vivo's mondesto's.. and although it may seem like a normal gathering, it's a special moment for me cos firstly, it's christmas, secondly, we talk about our taiwan trip and it really brings back loads of memories.. love this group of friends... with or without words.. i love them.. dessert at ecp's gelare... then sent the guys back home to prepare to book in for the night.. hang in there guys..it's xmas with my best friend..
went over to mich's place with ailing for dinner and got to understand her family tree better.. seeing her mom and grandma gives me a homely feel.. as though my grandma is still around, caring for me as ever.. and her mom is like my 2nd mom, someone whom i know i can talk to and share my troubles with, and i'm glad she shares her feelings with me too.. hope u guys are coping well.. stayed over with karin at mich's place.. and probably cos i woke up early in the morning and have been up all day, my intention of chatting over the night was spoilt.. cos i ended up sleeping. damn. shit. stupid me. hmph.26th: slept all the way till noon, and played mj with mich's uncle, grandma's sister and aunt. ha, i remembered the family tree.. got home, and prepare myself for my cousin's wedding.. held at marina mandarin, very loving couple, very romantic guy, very nice wedding setting, with a live singer and cello playing for the night.. will upload pics taken with my hp.. more to come when i get the pics from my cousin...my 3rd aunt's daughter.. my cousin.. anthea..anthea's son, my nephew..
my handsome brother...
the guys of the lee family..
my cousin.. hilda..
my cousin, hilda's brother..kegan..
my nephew, ivan..
my 3rd aunt..
my 1st aunt's 3rd child's wife..
mummy..
my 1st uncle's wife.. my ah gong.. dun think he even remembers my name, not because of his age but because i'm a child of his daughter.. u know.. the traditional family which is biase towards the guys?? ya. but he seem to be more cheerful and i am not so scared to talk to him now than before.. he's the only grandparent i have left, and i cherish this kinship, though we are not close. i really admire my mom's family.. 6 gals and 5 guys, brunching down the family tree to my generation, and then brunching down further to my nephews and nieces' generation.. but the 6 gals and 5 guys are still ever so close.. meeting up for birthdays, engagements, weddings, festivals, anniversaries..

well.. and from the 27th onwards, i'm in auckland, which is now. poor tat is left alone at home on the 27th cos mom and dad went to medan to visit friends, sis's still away in paris and i'm off to auckland.. freedom for one day dude!! hope u enjoyed it..

the year is coming to an end, and i dun intend to set any new year resolution cos i know that i will never be able to make it happen.

will be back on the 30th morning with more activities planned for my off days.. lunch with 903 gang, sha's bd party at night.. wow.. tiring day, but all worth it for the sake of the company of those who remembers me and know i exist. thanks.

it's now 2.40am here in auckland. will be back for more updates.. ta.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAIDAH!!

and.

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!

dad came back on sat.. i went to fetch him from the airport, and i must say, i think i've grown to be stronger on terms of handling my emotions.. cos it's the first time i din cry when i see him back in singapore!!

the whole afternoon was spent with him at home, but it was a quiet afternoon.. got pulled by kai to lipeng's and linda's birthday party.. created quite a commotion at lipeng's party.. well, when does it not happen??!! caught up with nic and cleo and other some other htm ppl.. it's really amazing how we can still keep in contact with each other.. those ppl whom i seldom talk to in sch are talking to me, reading my blog, showing concern to me.. thanks to all of u..chiong to airport to send my brother off.. saw linda low at the airport and she din believe my brother is my brother.. haha.. just before he went in, a hug from him made me tear..

dad send me to the airport in the morning.. and it's the first time he initiated a hug.. touched.. auckland is actually quite a boring place, esp when u only have 1 clear day there and the only place u can go is around the hotel and the town. crew were all nice, esp my chief.. friendly.. but every flt there'll definitely one nasty one..
i thought she looks like tanya chua..
the surface of the car is 毛毛!! cool..

went to mich's dad's funeral yesterday.. taken aback when her mom and grandma pour out to me and came and share their feelings with me.. i'm glad that they did it thought, telling me their feelings and not keeping things to themselves.. michelle: i'm always here for u.. and pls, do take care of urself..

going down again later.. and bro's back.. yeah.

here in auckland now.. got called up for this flt.. was at lipeng's bd party when i got the info.. and it was super rush for me.. got the info about 10pm plus.. then send shawn off to fukuoka.. then by the time i reach home.. do my hw for the flt, paint nails, pack bag.. i slept at 2 plus... woke up at 5am.. felt damn shag for the flt..

will be doing the same pattern again in 2 wks time.. actually there's nothing much here.. a station to hibernate and slack in the room.. will post pics from this flt when i get back..

take care guys..

back from frankfurt yesterday.. went shopping with tat, and then to CX gathering at Agnes' place.. played mahjong and lost as usual.. but it was really nice to see these ppl again.. miss those days.. days when i really enjoyed working..
and today.. kinda forced tat to go k with me.. in return, i bought him a vest and shirt.. sigh.. bought for myself a jacket from topshop.. and a bag for linda's bd..
i must admit i'm quite stingy when it comes to buying things.. but somehow, i'm always willing to spend on food, and my brother.. he's going to fukuoka tmr.. have fun dude..

2nd time to frankfurt.. nothing much.. except that i flew with the no. 1 of top ten.. but i was not aimed on this flt.. lucky.. didn't do much actually.. just lunch with my crew.. then went to town to get my mom's gucci stuff.. sure pains me to see the money signed off for a bag and a wallet.. 2nd day was just breakfast at hotel.. back to room to watch dvd.. then dinner at hotel.. boring life huh.. that's me. boring jovi. the candy house at the lobby. it's real candy.. the cinnamon smell was real strong.
my mentor..
struggling with the german words when buying train tix..
i'm done with my gucci!!
and the above are all that i've got from this trip... lots of chocolates.. cos it's cheaper here.. if u think that's a lot.. u should see some of them buying back the whole carton of chocolates..

just heard from my friend that her dad passed away in beijing.. i can't help but cry for her family.. i've met her dad.. worked with him.. served him.. a really nice guy.. i'm really sorry about wad happened.. makes me think about my grandma.. wish i could be there for u man..

i dunno wad's happening, but i just feel that i've been forgotten.. ppls busy with bf, with gf, with mahjong, with work, with family, with everything.. i've been busy before so i understand as well. but now, i can't even find someone i feel comfortable with to talk to..

i didn't realise dad sent us an email, until my sis mentioned bout it.. words of encouragement, motivational slideshows.. gosh. that's coming from the traditional, inexpressive, chinese father.. i'm really touched.. even before i opened the mail, tears were rolling down my cheeks.. just like now..

he's coming back tmr afternoon.. shawn's leaving tmr night.. i'll most probably be called up for flt on sunday, sis's coming back on monday, and shawn and i coming back on thursday.. so when will we be able to have a full attendance meal without having anyone rushing off to somewhere else?

guess i'll be crying myself to sleep tonight again..

just got back from bangkok on friday noon.. home to change and then met bel for lunch at waraku before making our way to grand copthorne.. took a super long bus ride there.. good chance for me to catch up on my sleep.. was quite worried about the turn out of the christmas party.. but lucky it was alright.. wouldn't say it was a wow event, but at least it turned out well..
the FBMA youth wing surviving EXCO.. went back home.. knocked out. all the way till noon yesterday.. met bel for k at marina.. got this super big room to just the two of us.. and we were practically freezing in there for 3 hrs.. walked around for a while and i got myself a dress for my friend's social night!! so happy with myself.. got some food for tat and went to his place.. planning to celebrate his birthday for him.. a simple sit around in the living room.. watching tv.. and cute limin came with a luggage, with the cake in it!! haha.. power.. got a surprise guest.. and i'm suspecting something going on.. and i was right after bel told me about it.. well, i'll be grossed out if something really happens..HAPPY BIRTHDAY MING..

going to frankfurt at night.. wish me all the best..