Friday, November 30, 2007

back from amsterdam on thursday morning.. but was busy all the way..

mom was hospitalised on wed, and i only got to know about it when i reach home.. after shawn left for work, the house seemed kinda empty for me to stay in.. rested for a while, before taking the car to pick shawn, and then grab a bite at AMK, home then to KK to visit my mom..

although there were only 2 of us at home, i can imagine the whole family moving around the house, just like the past when everyone was home for dinner in front of the tv.. having fruits.. when will that day ever come again.. i guess for that time to come, i'll probably be out of this flying job, maybe sis will still be committed to her job, but then mom might be too weak or ill to cook for the family.. and perhaps, dad might still be working.. and tat will be busy with his sch life.. everyone busy with their commitments..

played overnight mahjong with my cousins and my brother.. and like ever, i lost quite badly in fact. nothing unusual since i've been cursed with the bad luck ever since i was born.

went home, did housework before leaving for cineleisure.. k lunch with my vantana and mel.. haven seen them for so long, and guess wad, one of them is already married.. seeing her with the blissful look on her face.. i know she will be very happy in her marriage..

have been to amsterdam before, and so i just brought chantel around the area.. thought of visiting the windmill, but weather was not in favour for that.. i have nothing much to talk about this flt.. just some pics to share..
that's about all for my ams flt.. nothing interesting huh..

cartel for dinner with shawn yesterday...
k-ing is becoming a form of destress for me.. indulging myself in the different melodies.. and not forgetting the meaningful lyrics.. i'll share about the k session more when i get the pics from vantana..

btw, my mom's alright now.. back home.. thanks to all for your concern.. much appreciated..

Sunday, November 25, 2007

in a few hours time i'll be off to amsterdam.. going to a place that i've been before.. at least i know where to roam there.. and plus i'll be going with gayna's batchgal.. i found a khaki.. that's the yeah part..

the boo part, of course like always, leaving the family and my friends. you wouldn't want to hear me going on about how i am dragging myself to work everytime and how much i'll miss everyone..

my mom said something to me this morning.. "why you look so shag and down after u start flying??" i was like dumbfounded.. i mean.. wad can i say.. i gave her that "sigh..." look.. and i believe she knows wad i mean by that.. but at least she realise that i'm not really happy where i am now, just trying really damn bloody hard to make the best out of things.. trying to convince myself that the perks of the allowance and off days are keeping me going.. but then again, i'm really not a materialistic gal and i believe in 'hard work will pay off in due time'..

my close friends know bout my situation now.. but i long to share my feelings with my family members as well.. but having the support of my friends, i guess i should consider myself fortunate enough to have known these ppl.. not asking for too much, just a someone to be there to understand me..

wanna stop working then study.. now like now... then get a job that will make me feel happier living.. by the time i finish my studies if i follow my plan now.. should be in time to join the industry again with the ns guys.. well... guess looking at the current situation, my family will be the first to object to me quitting.. dun even dare to raise the matter la. damn it.

my flt to ams will not be a smooth sailing one i think.. flying with one of the top ten.. man.. kana from her yesterday already.. bad sign. thinks she dun like my face. damn. damn. damn.

ta.

Friday, November 23, 2007

chauffeured my tang di to change his bandage this morning.. no more elephant knee.. haha.. his mom thanked me for helping out.. it feels weird.. probably cos i din except myself to be thanked for my doings.. probably it's a one sided obligation.. get well soon..

saw this from afar.. and it brings back lots and loads of memories.. TP..

on a random note, i saw this cab and i thought the colour was lovely.. and the car plate no was quite cool too..


met ms ivy tan, weisheng, kai and justin for lunch at TP.. the new training restaurant, top table.. really different from my time.. the setting, dress code, atmosphere... wow.. weird combi i know, but sometimes, even ppl from different clique can click when ppl of the same kind gathers.. HTM...

went to cineleisure for k session with justin and kai after lunch.. i know, u guys must be thinking: my god, she went to k again!! haha.. it's my hobby.. love it.. but kai lost his voice, can't sing duet with me, and justin sings without the mic.. so it's like another one of my concert again.. haha. but nevertheless, k-ing is fun!!

and thanks to linda and other ppl whom i dunno, the rumour is like spreading fast.. haha.. my god.. i wun spend time explaining myself..

visited ming after k.. so did audrey, bel, ailing and limin.. we went through his old pictures and of course, there were pics of myself in some of them as well... ppl normally look out for themselves first when looking at pictures, but it was different for me today. in almost all pictures, i looked closely at how my grandma has aged, how she used to smile when carrying us, when she travelled overseas with us, and i happened to chance upon the picture of my late uncle and aunt. and also a picture of my mom and dad when they were young.. i miss playing with my uncle, i miss my grandma so much, and i miss my dad so so very much..

my mom said my dad most prob changing job.. ending the current one in mid dec, and starting his new job in jan. good news is he's leaving the company he dun like, bad news is he still has to work overseas.. i guess he probably get an overseas job cos it's better paying.. it's all for the family.. my mom said this is one of the many good traits of a hainanese man.. i choose to believe becos of my dad..

i've come to learn that i got to really cherish my family members and relatives.. becos at anytime, anywhere, things might happen... i might leave anytime, anyone might leave anytime..

Thursday, November 22, 2007

got called up for mnl turn today.. but before that i was still out till late..

last min decision to go town for k session with bel.. before heading to ming's place to visit him..

and here's a pic of the elephant's knee.. haha..dinner with mom and friend at ecp.. then went over to aunt's place to borrow car.. and then to safra tampines to meet my long time no see YGM colleagues!! man.. really miss them!! think i haven seen them for.. about 1.5 yrs??!! played pool.. short time together but i'm really elated to have such friendship sustaining even till now..
gotta wake up early to send the elephant to the clinic tmr.. ta.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

back from london yesterday.. but first.. let me share about the happenings before my london trip..

KL turn on tues.. then on wed met pam and mich for lunch at chinatown.. before that, i had late breakfast with my family at our favourite bah kut teh at tanjong pagar.. love it.. then mom dropped us 3 at vivo before we went our separate ways...and then mich and i went to k at k-ster.. before making our way to raffles place to look for ailing.. met up with some of the htm ppl from first batch till now.. at the alumni gathering.. rather awkward.. cos all the happening lecturers were not around, and our batch ppl were just in our own corner.. in the end we left early, waited quite a while for the cab (cos of the new law bout taxis in CBD), and had our dinner at TM's fish and co... quite a mix of company.. but hey, we are all from HTM...

london on thursday, flt up was super light and v nice to work.. cos the pax were all happy... and so were we.. temperature according to captain was about 4 degrees.. and i dun need to make effort to achieve my cheap chill!! haha.. so cool to see the vapour from ur mouth whenever we talk.. dinner after checked in at this restaurant called bugis street.. and yes.. it sells singapore food. not that fantastic though. of course. nothing beats having singapore food in singapore...

the warm fireplace in the hotel.. it's real fire..

2nd day.. brunch at this hkg restaurant that the crew always goes.. walked all the way there.. having to pass through this superbly pretty park.. love the view and the feel there.. had the famous duck rice there.. and trust me. it is really nice..

the big bus of london!!according to shirley.. it's an artistic take..queen victoria!!
policewomen..
the iconic london phone booth..
after brunch is shopping time!! went to primark and H&M.. not really a shopping person, so just got myself a 15 pound worth topcoat.. can keep warm, just that it's 3/4 sleeve.. went to sightsee on my own.. took the tube (=MRT) on my own and it's the first time i'm on my own when i'm in overseas... nice feeling, not having to entertain anyone.. visited the big ben, london eye, and the disappointing london bridge.. pictures were taken about 3 plus, but the sun was already setting..cam-whoring in the tube.. alone..
the big ben is too tall..
but i manage to capture it with my good cam whoring skills!!
and here's the london eye.. the one featured on fantastic 4.. familiar??
and here's the disappointing london bridge..
mamma mia was my next stop.. went to watch with 2 other crew.. simple props.. but love the songs.. and i just love the whole musical feel.. 2nd musical i've watched..
by night, the temperature went down to minus 2 and i was like trembling.. cold.. but my crew were v nice.. bought wine and chips over to my room after i came back and with their company, i was not lonely for that night..

3rd day was standby day.. so after briefing we took a london cab (first time!!) to the same hkg restaurant for lunch.. told u it was nice.. and the london cab we see in singapore is really the london cab.. cool.. shopped a bit at marks and spencer and then back to hotel.. although it's standby day, the crew were damn daring.. drinking wine in my room!! chilled from about 3 plus till 9 plus at night..
back on the 4th day and touched down on the 5th day.. flt back.. full flt, and i had to work with ppl who wasn't putting in as much effort as the rest of the crew were.. my god. never ending call lights.. and walked till my feet got blisters.. and mind u, i was in sandals. didn't really get to have my meals onboard.. and in short, i was picked on and targeted throughout the flt, with never ending things to do even after landing. period.

rested in the afternoon before meeting tat ming and ailing for dinner.. ailing got emo and of course, i was affected.. but i cannot show it, one emo is better than 2 right.. watched game plan.. lovely show.. at some parts of the movie the lead reminds me of kai.. haha.. maybe cos of his build and actions..

received a msg from mich in the afternoon telling me she's going to beijing that night with her parents for her dad's condition, not knowing exactly when she'll be back.. wanted to send her off but she insisted that i shouldn't.. she called when she was in the transit.. and i cried when i got her call.. i guess i got phobia of close ones leaving me.. and plus the tinge of emo in me.. i just can't control it..

went to hard rock cafe to look for my london crew.. it was kumar's night.. very clubby.. and i conclude, i dun like that kinda place.. to chill is okie.. but then again, it might be a good thing that i dun like clubbing..

reached home about 3am.. and today, the day started off early.. picked sis, did marketing, and met bel at mac to satisfy our breakfast craving since perhaps a month ago.. and then went to CGH.. ming did his knee ops today and we went over to surprise him, and to give him moral support as well.. dun know why but i just felt like being there for him.. we were there in time to see him for 1 or 2 mins before he go for his ops.. and bel and i waited for about 3 hrs before he came back.. with a super big bandage on his knee.. to think he can bear the pain to go down to smoke. best. dunno wad else i can say or do.. got him this brick game thing to keep him entertained.. glad to see that he's okie.. he's discharged, resting at home, and i'm just praying he'll know how to take care of his wound and not overstrain his wadever muscle..

with those glasses.. do i look like my cousin?? haha..
i feel touched that someone is sharing her troubles with me.. i mean, thank you for trusting me. i've always wanted to share ur burden, but i dunno how to go about doing so..

listening to jay's new album.. he's sad songs.. the lyrics, the voice.. emo.. emo..

Thursday, November 15, 2007

going off to london later today.. 14 hrs flt.. wish me luck for the flt and with the crew..

more updates of my off days when i come back ya?

cheers.

back on mon.. if all goes well.

Monday, November 12, 2007

back from johannesburg on sat morning.. and chatted on the phone with ailing.. haha.. weird timing for a chat i know, but i love the feeling of chatting with my best friend.. without hiding anything from her.. love u gal...

flew with my sis's team leading couple.. really nice ppl.. long flt, short rest period, but somehow i seemed to work really hard for this flt..

stayed in this area called emperor's palace.. and it's really like a palace.. having to go through a guard house..

rest.. and went out for dinner with sophia and salleh at ocean's basket... this place is v similar to fish and co.. and apparently it is the origin of fish and co.. huge portion.. fantastic food.. and lovely company..

walked around the place.. see the casino, the 'palace'.. and went back to rest.. GMT +2.. so can't sleep, as usual..

watched stardust with the two of them there.. fantasy show.. but interesting..
back from johannesburg.. then met taiwan gang and tat at waraku.. to celebrate zifu and hao's birthday..

then went over to sylvie's place to play overnight mahjong with shao, his friend, and sylvie's sis.. got tat to tag along..

played for 11hrs.. 11pm to 10am.. wow.. but got winning.. haha.. went back to rest for a while.. then met audrey, bel, limin and tat for k.. got emo that day while singing.. dunno why but thought about my dad and my grandma.. sigh.. super tired but still enjoyed my time with every one that i'm in contact with.. thanks guys..

received a msg from my brother that shocked me.. finally, he's showing his feelings, his sadness make me feel so much for him.. i dunno how to console him.. so did something for him..

going for KL turn tmr.. wish me luck with good crew..

wish to dedicate this song to ailing, my best friend.. though it's early cos i'm not attached, but pls know my stand when i do..

不能跟情人说的话

有时候对一个人那么用心
却还是搞不清楚他的逻辑

谈恋爱谁没演过一点戏
装没事装忘记装小心翼翼

有时候和一个人那么亲密
却还是忍不住想保护自己

谁恋爱不曾藏一点秘密
留防备留回忆留心情

谢谢你总是陪我分享
不能跟情人说的话
我反反复复你也从不笑我
老是骂他却又离不开他

谢谢你总是替我收藏
不想跟情人说的话
我胡思乱想你一直握着我手
让我释放然后慢慢宽广

别人都说我很坚强
只有你劝我别逞强
爱是漂亮却不完美的天堂
旧了总有需要修补的地方

my blood brother ordered pizza.. and when reading the cc details to the operator.. he said "B for Bee.." haha.. when i heard it.. i was like laughing.. real loud.. then my mom made fun of him.. saying even she also know should say B for bangkok.. haha... then she say.. “just like Z for new zealand.." yet another joke.. haha...

i'm enjoying the night in with my family.. having pizza.. and talking.. chatting.. about everything under the sun.. love my family..