i'm a goner.

feeling of being wanted, gone.

feeling of acceptance, gone.

everything's gone.

then wad am i still doing here?

i should be gone too.

give me time. i will be gone soon.

wad's the point if i have no friends, no family, no nothing.

if that's wad u want, if that's wad makes u happy, i will be gone soon. be happy.

does this means, i've lost my best friend?

feeling, kinda, devastated.

Seems like it's time to wake up from the perfect dream. It felt so comfortable, so right living the life I have the past few weeks. But I know deep inside, all these are just too good to be true. I never should deserve such privileges of life.

I guess life is all about making choices. There're probably no right or wrong to that, it's just how each individual sees the value of the choice. I made my choice, to love wholeheartedly, from day 1 till now, I dare say, I have. It's not easy to find someone u really love, and it's even harder to get that person to love u back. Unfortunately for me, I've loved 2 men in my whole life, and non of them seem to love me as hard as I loved them. Ever. I could lay my life for them, but I believe they'll never do the same for me. Some may say, u loved the wrong man, others may say u're just stupid. I'd say it's my choice to love, and I'll do what it takes to honour my choice. At least for me, there'll be no regrets. And I can proudly say I've loved hard before 20 years down the road.

So people out there, if u love someone and that someone loves u too, go for it. Do wadever it takes, as long as it's within ur conscience, go for it.

"U may choose to not love me, but u cannot stop me from loving u." I read this somewhere and I agree w it totally. It's not easy to love someone, I believe many will agree w me on this, so to all lovers out there, u're a strong person, keep it up and keep the fire burning. Cos I've come to realise, without this love burning in me, I'm nothing but a living dead. At least that's the case for me.

Jaded may be the word to describe me now, and it's really tiring to give all the love u have and not get anything in return. I guess this love is gonna stick w me for a while, and I'm not gonna love again. It's too draining, esp when I always end up loving people who dun love me.

Guess I can only seek comfort in the voice I'm familiar w thru songs...
就是他的声音，每天听了心里会暖暖的。
这个声音很神奇。
难过的时候听了心里会变得温暖。
兴奋的时候听了会很激动。
伤心的时候听了会想好好的哭一场。
那个人就是你。所以，我超爱听你唱歌。想每天都能听到你的歌声,这样日子才会比较好过。