another 3 months have passed... and lots have been thought through and been through.
my brother has settled down in LA.. adjusting to the culture, place, people perfectly. i'm really glad that he's doing well over that, his rowing, his studies, his social life. proud to have him as my little brother, the tall, mature, kind, smart little brother of mine.
life for me has been a lot less hectic.. i spend my free time watching drama, listening to music, and chilling at Hood. i frequent there, not only becos of the live bands, but also becos i know, there'll always be someone i know whenever i go there, always will feel safe and not having to worry about not having people to take care of me.
but somehow, something is missing.. it feels like, something big has been taken out from my heart and it feels empty. maybe it's a sign of aging, but a lot of reminiscing has been done for the past few months.. about the 1st him, 2nd him, and the few potentials that cross my path in life...
maybe it's becos there are a handful that got married, got pregnant, got attached, got divorced and a handful that fell out of love, and all these things happening to the people around me that made me think about life a bit more than usual.
i guess in life, having its ups and downs, it's inevitable to have mixed feelings about things or people. but ultimately, i feel, i've learnt, that we should always love ourself more and build up the confidence in ourself. i always believe, one day, i will find the one who will not care if i'm rich or poor, pretty or ugly. he'll love me forever, cherish me and care for me always.
my brother has settled down in LA.. adjusting to the culture, place, people perfectly. i'm really glad that he's doing well over that, his rowing, his studies, his social life. proud to have him as my little brother, the tall, mature, kind, smart little brother of mine.
life for me has been a lot less hectic.. i spend my free time watching drama, listening to music, and chilling at Hood. i frequent there, not only becos of the live bands, but also becos i know, there'll always be someone i know whenever i go there, always will feel safe and not having to worry about not having people to take care of me.
but somehow, something is missing.. it feels like, something big has been taken out from my heart and it feels empty. maybe it's a sign of aging, but a lot of reminiscing has been done for the past few months.. about the 1st him, 2nd him, and the few potentials that cross my path in life...
maybe it's becos there are a handful that got married, got pregnant, got attached, got divorced and a handful that fell out of love, and all these things happening to the people around me that made me think about life a bit more than usual.
i guess in life, having its ups and downs, it's inevitable to have mixed feelings about things or people. but ultimately, i feel, i've learnt, that we should always love ourself more and build up the confidence in ourself. i always believe, one day, i will find the one who will not care if i'm rich or poor, pretty or ugly. he'll love me forever, cherish me and care for me always.