has been feeling kinda moody these few days.. but i think the problem just lies with me.. this is one problem other people find it hard to face: accepting their faults. well, at least i plucked up enough courage to admit my fault. kudos to me.

i feel that i'm always around when the conversation does not involve me.. hate the feeling cos i always dunno how to react to these kinda situations.. within a week, it has happen twice.. when i ask, nothing is said.. to people out there, in future if u do not want me to know about anything, please do not talk about it in front of me..

i can be a fun person to talk to. i can be a fun person to make fun of. but please know ur limits.. it's kinda hurting to me when sensitive words hit me straight in the face even though i know that it's meant to be a joke.

i thought i found my friends and all to fill my life.. but recently, all seem to slowly go with the wind and drift away from me.. real slow.. at work, in sch, at home.. everywhere... i seem to have lost the bond i have with almost everyone..

no one understands what i mean, no one understands how i feel..

it's ok. i'm still me. no change. i'll keep on trying..

yap.. i know.. i haven been blogging much...

thanks to mich, nelson, rozy and kai for celebrating my 18th birthday with me...

thanks to audrey, chris and sky from waraku for getting me the lovely cakes and presents.. ans also the pleasant surprise.. thanks..

then there was the balloon hat festival.. thanks mich and ailing for the fun that we had making balloon hats till we got our hands and tired out..

had a couple of shopping session with ailing and mich.. to get a formal bag, court shoes, belt, blouse.. enjoyed the company..

also the RITS session that i have every monday.. honoured that mr neo and mr joseph thinks i'm skilled in service skill.. all thanks to the training i have from waraku.. opening bottle of wine.. setting of tables, clearing of dishes, serving.. making mocktails and cocktails.. interesting.. but from next week for 4 weeks i'll be attached to the Images of Singapore.. kinda looking forward to it though..

got called by kai to be one of the part time actress for 'i not stupid 2'. and wad do we do all morning?? jumping about, catching imaginary money.. ...

watched mr and mrs smith today with my brother.. nice show.. cool and style..

lots of things has been happening.. so much that i've difficulty handling them.. not just heart matters, but also family and projects.. all these are unavoidable.. but i seem to be able to do nothing about it.. i mean.. not within my means to decide..

wadeva it is.. i'll just stick to being myself.. like it or not.. this is me.

gonna be home alone tml..