after putting down the big stone in my heart, i began to open myself up a little... i went out with one of my HM senior, agreed and went out with my batchgal and her friends... one of which is someone she wanna matchmake me to... and later, i'll be going out with a colleague...

on the flight, there were two stewards who were trying on me.. funnily, tryers only try me after the breakup...

feeling all flattered by all the attention i get from guys, i sometimes feel it's probably just becos i'm single that makes me more attractive...

honestly, i thought i'll let loose and give in... but surprisingly, rejection seems to happen more frequently than ever... i thought about it... and came to a conclusion: maybe, just maybe, i'm still not over him.

it's been long.. really long... by now, i confirm there's no one reading this blog anymore... and this blog is gonna be a place i share my emotions... this blog is going to be my friend all over again... the friend that i can talk to everywhere i go, at anytime, and will always be my listening ear.. when i'm happy, and sad...

i've already stop blogging in livejournal... stop blogging about him, stop blogging about my daily feelings about him after the breakup... i guess this time, i've really let it go. this time, i'm not just consoling myself and deceiving myself... this time, i really feel i'm ready to move on...

i do feel relieved... but at the same time, a little lost. it seems as though i've lost my sense of direction in life. i used to still use him as my motivation, and i can still get through life with him in my mind.. now that i'm forcing him out of my mind, it's tough to get going...