it's been long.. really long... by now, i confirm there's no one reading this blog anymore... and this blog is gonna be a place i share my emotions... this blog is going to be my friend all over again... the friend that i can talk to everywhere i go, at anytime, and will always be my listening ear.. when i'm happy, and sad...

i've already stop blogging in livejournal... stop blogging about him, stop blogging about my daily feelings about him after the breakup... i guess this time, i've really let it go. this time, i'm not just consoling myself and deceiving myself... this time, i really feel i'm ready to move on...

i do feel relieved... but at the same time, a little lost. it seems as though i've lost my sense of direction in life. i used to still use him as my motivation, and i can still get through life with him in my mind.. now that i'm forcing him out of my mind, it's tough to get going...