taken for granted, yet again.

wad jaccent said made lots of sense, and geist's hug made me feel a lot better. friends like these, hard to find.

all i wanted was a hug, that's all. so hard to ask for?

it's 246am. and i gotta be up by 6am for training. wad i was i doing at a mando club at 11pm? i really dunno now. all in effort to support a very important friend. that's all. and got chided by myself for being so stupid: knowingly that i'll not be entertained by that very important friend, but yet foolishly pushing all appointments away and rushing down to support.

a hug. that's all i ask for every time.

i went to see a doctor yesterday regarding my insomnia. he asked me lots of questions.. a lot. and the conclusion is: depression.

when the doctor told me that, i laugh. i never thought i'll get that kinda conclusion from the doctor. thought i'll just get some sleeping pills from him.

depression. never thought i'll end up in this state ever. looks like even my laughter is not able to mask my depression.