time really flies.. in just a short time, i'm coming to the end of the semester, closing the days of exams.. just thinking back brings wonderful memories..

the time we met in TP after the long break, getting ready to make our way to TAS.. the first step into TAS.. the very first class i attended (accounting lecture), the very first time ate at fare and square, the very first time i went to the different toilets, the first time i bathe in TAS, the first time i got my new TAS pass... all the first times.. and all seems like a familiar routine to me..

i'll definitely miss working at the service side of the restaurant, wearing formal once a week to sch, to sentosa.. miss the lecturers and tutors that has been so patient and understanding towards us.. thank you all.. not forgeting my classmates!! 2H01!!

back to updates. all interviews, projects, all over.. finally. i know i won't score well, perhaps it's just in my blood.. i guess i'll just have to work super hard for my paper to pull up my marks.. thinking of that makes me really stress.. ma and pa has been asking about my studies recently, and i really dunno how to ans. the guesses that they made demoralised me.. am i that bad a child in their eyes? i know i've deproved quite a bit since primary sch, but i've done all that i can. i dun mean to disappoint them, i dun mean to make them upset. it's just not within my ability to do so. i've tried and i'll keep trying.. i will..

went to Mr Damien Sullivan's place for a function last sat. not to attend, but to work. serving about 30 pax of majority Australians, it was a great eye opener for me. Mr Sullivan was quite a gentleman, offering us a guest room for us to change!! and the bed is just comfy, the place is just huge and i had mich to share this excitement and joy with me!! we were suppose to serve red wine, white wine, champagne and beer, and the job of course includes opening the bottles. had so much fun practising the opening of the wine bottles and my first try at opening champagne was quite a successful one.. yeah.. had "dunch" and supper with mich and her mum at joo chiat ba ku teh as well as newton food centre respectively.. thanks mich's mum for the treat!! how nice to have a mother that can talk to you like a friend.. and even joke with you.. hmm..

proficiency test was great.. made a couple of mistakes, but i'm quite confident.. practical i dun have much problem.. but when it comes to written work.. i guess that's where my confidence level fall.. hopefully my determination can help me to focus more and that my brain cells can co-operate and improve on my memory..

dad's back to indo.. and i din manage to say bye before he left.. so sad.. so many sad news coming at one time.. cousin attempted suicide, mom's friend got cancer, dad's friend got cancer 3rd stage..

life.. so brittle.. some wants to die but can't, others want to live but can't.. so should be learn to cherish life?? if life is so full of uncertainty, why keep hopes so high when it can disappoint u anytime? the place that we all are living in is called, confusion...

saw olinda choo at parkway parade today!! she was painting the stupid thing outside isetan, with her blue highlighted hair, and her slim figure!! so jealous.. but, her big head just dun fit in right..

had lunch at RITS with mich and ailing today.. food was cooked by some 'big shot' chef, so suppose to be nice, but too bad din fit into typical Singaporean's taste.. haha..

this week is so full of interviews and presentations and peer appraisal.. lucky for me, i only got CRS interview left. bad for me, i haven started studying for it yet!!

on sat i'm gonna be working in a place full of ang mohs.. haha.. all thanks to the lobang by my boss aka godfather aka bf.. haha.. i think it's quite funny..

this week i feel like a mother... waking my brother up every morning, getting him dinner every night, rushing him to go to bed, urging him to go study.. hmm.. but i kinda like this kinda lifestyle, with all the freedom we can have, but still know our limits.. tml, hell is coming back.. help me!!

finally.. Club Resort Spa Business project is over!! today was really project rushing day in the morning.. went to TAS to do my Apel reflection, hand in my portfolio, do last minute touch-up for the Service Skill project... in the process of doing these projects.. there were disagreements, arguements, displeasure against one another.. but it's all over.. now, it's just presentation and AppRes project left...

had a great afternoon k-ing today.. went to chinatown k-ster with mich and her friends.. and my BOSS.. haha.. johnathan joined in when we were into our last hour of singing.. first time there.. quite nice.. although khaki was a bit weird.. but i enjoyed singing my heart out.. and just realised that i always cannot hear myself when singing with mich.. cos we sound the same!! no wonder we are in the same band.. (S.H.E).. haha...

not feeling well.. therefore got sky to take over my shift for today.. then accompanied mich to TPJC band concert.. a bit weird cos first time i wear so lok-kok to a concert.. then so last min.. plus, i was in a choir.. dun really know much about band music.. however, mistakes were easily identified and i kept myself awake during the concert by obverving the actions of the people playing the tong-tong thing.. haha.. forgot wad it is called... and thanks to mich, i got myself another match-maker... nice to meet mich's friend too...

headache coming back.. and i'm not a person who will see doctors.. so, i really appreciate mich, for getting me medicine for my fever.. really touched when she passed me the pills, and making sure i take them.. love ya..

a big load of my back.. but kinda get used to the not-sleeping lifestyle le.. hmm.. that's bad right? dunno how to sleep now.. becoming a zombie.. well, at least i'm still in the right mind..

niwae, yesterday i took the bus out of sentosa with tat ming.. not very close to him but having conversation with him and knowing he's beside me just gives me a very heart-warming feeling.. like.. someone of close relation is close to me, giving me a sense of security.. i know he'll be there for me when i need him.. i know..

today, i've learnt the value of friendship.. thanks mich..

yes.. this is my class for this semester.. every sem, there's a different kind of bond within the class.. first sem, close like glue.. always hanging around with each other, shopping for blazers together.. wonderful feeling.. second sem, everyone just indulge in their own project groups, rushing projects, i think i already forgot who was my classmate for that semester.. this sem, although we dunno majority of each other, but as time goes by, everyone seem to be able to bond with each other.. cracking jokes, helping each other with our work, going k-box together.. the feeling is great, but first sem is still the best.

in about another month's time, we are all going to be splited up again.. it's good that i can make more friends, but then friendship with others will fade.. feeling kinda emotional..

desiree and sky has been together secretly for close to one month.. and to think the 4 of us dunno about it.. not even audrey.. feeling happy for them, but sad at the same time.. it's not like i'm jealous of them, i'm just feeling empty in me.. cos everyone around me seem to be having a partner.. and i'm feeling lonely.. i wun seek, i'll only wait.

went touring around sentosa with yixiu and her boyfriend yesterday... they came down to RITS for lunch, then i took them to images of singapore to tour, and we took the cable car out of sentosa.. nice experience, to relax after so much stress from work, and also to join them as they have fun riding the cable car and getting scared by the figures in the images of singapore. but then somehow i felt like i was a super big lightbulb..

there's just so much that i can do, but ppl seem to put me under the everything-also-can-do catagory.. and sometimes i feel flattered, but sometimes i feel bullied..

and then i want to ask everyone a qn, again: am i really that fierce?? yixiu boyfriend say yes. my colleagues say yes. wadeva it is, i am really trying to change.. change my 'fierceness'. well, if i really change, then i think u guys can prepare for a new huiyi.