honestly, i think it's really shallow to put someone down just becos something in your life doesn't go your way. it may not be your fault entirely, but do a little bit of soul searching and see if u are at fault too. always thinking that u are always right, always putting the blame on someone else, and always thinking the whole world owes u a living? let me tell u, u are very wrong. if you can tell me straight in the face that u've done nothing to contribute to what has happened, with a clear conscious, then fine, you win. but before u do that, make sure u have thought through it thoroughly. cos if u don't, sad to say, you'll never be a happy person, ever.

all that's been said, it's for your own good. if u dun wanna lose ur close friends and those people who love you, as a friend, i think it's time u change for the better.

Wondering: why are there so many people around me experiencing heart wrenching issues?

One's grandma passed away on cny day 1, one's suspected victim of cervical cancer, one who just suffered a miscarriage, one who just broke up, one who's caught in a triangle relationship, and one who just got into a debt cos of her previous bf.

All these happenings around me, makes me so upset and moody. Wish I can do something to help them.. If I can solve the problem w $$, I already have. And those that i can't, all I can offer are my advice and my company, my presence, my friendship.

Honestly, there's nothing much in my life that requires me to take a ride on the emotional rollercoaster... Nothing that is worth being happy about, and nothing worth crying about... But somehow, it's the monotonous life that's causing all the restless feeling in me... The kind of feeling is like, as though u want to watch a movie w someone but can't cos of their commitment, as though u want to call someone to chit chat but the fear of disturbing them is there...

Sometimes, the feeling of trying to be nonchalant sucks. Random thought but that's how I feel. Nonchalant about how my friends are using me, how my friends are taking me for granted, how small I am in the eyes of the people who are so so important to me. It's not always that I'm ok when I say i'm ok.. You know?

But rest assured, if there's anyone who tries to harm my friends or do more bad than good to my friends, I'll do all I can to protect them. That's my promise to all my friends out there..

Guess sometimes, u really dun need to expect anything in return when u do things for people.

Some people may be jealous of u for what u can do, what u have, who u are... But I guess having a clear conscious is what matters most. It's normal for people to be jealous, but dun let it affect u and make u a sore loser.

There was a period of time, I was v jealous of my friends who can sing better, have better luck, good career and all. And at the same time, there were people who were jealous of me too, for wad reasons I dunno, but the things they do and say makes it so degrading to themselves, I told myself I shall learn to embrace people's goodness and accept them n myself for who we are.

It's true wad they say: no matter how pretty u are on the outside, no matter how many friends u have in ur circle life, as long as u are petty, and have an ugly character, no matter wad, u'll be ugly forever.