finally...

finally, really, something is done for transport business.. we've been draggin it for weeks and finally it's moving... so glad that i've made myself clear to the grp of my expectations and that they co-operate well with me... i hope i wasn't too harsh... if i was, lovers, sorry. i noe that's it's so easy to tell if i'm in a bad mood or not... i was actually a bit shocked when liza said i wasn't as approachable as i was on the first day of orientation as compared to now.. did i really change? change for the better or worse? izzit the projects that are making me tired, or is it true that i've changed? i've always been self-conscious.. so.. i'll do my best to cheer everyone up.. and let everyone likes me... lessons were boring today.. but ms tirzah said that i've good posture and other that asking me to project my voice more, the overall presentation was good!! felt good in comm skills for once.. stayed back today to study.. finished both quiz for BCS.. and the stupid vending machine wasn't working... all three of them... so stupid.. them i have to go home on an empty stomach... until now haven eat... having gastric... shit.. going to stayover night at a chalet with liza tml!!! so excited.. first time i staying over at chalet with a friend and no adult.. we are going to watch the sunrise... and enjoy the sea breeze at the seaside!!! i promise i'll come up with a class outing, maybe a chalet, at the end of this sem.. where everyone has lesser projects and more time for play... so the rest of the class.. dun get jealous k.. =p

success!!

today was our BCS webpage presentation. every gal and guy wore formal: guys long sleeve and tie, gals, blouse and mostly skirts. being the class rep of TB050, i feel proud of them. all of them did fantastically well. 3 cheers for TB050!! i know of some grps which are not confident of their projects and also themselves. but i'll like to reassure everyone that it's important to really trust urself.. if u dun trust urself that u can do it, dun ever expect ppl to trust u.. this is something that i've learnt in a hard way.. so this time, u gotta trust me.. grace, liza and alvin chai.. a very big thank you to all of u... without the 3 of u.. our project would not have survived from the obstacles that we've met.. and we wouldn't have been able to present well today... i think we really did a great job.. we took really great pictures.. ( but some people in our class have bad photographic skills...=) having mixed feelings about things now... i'm only lonely...

All The Love In The World
Music & Lyrics: R.J. Lange, Andrea
CorrTranscript: www.corrsonline.com
I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say
Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...
(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world
I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize itI have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away
(Still...) Still I believe
(I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...
(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world
Love's for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me...
(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...)

so tired...

went to school at 8.30 this morning.. dunno for what also... but at least manage to have a heart-to-heart talk with alison... and help alvin L do his comm skills thingy... sometimes people just gotta sit down face to face and talk things out.. u can't possibly noe what the person is thinking about just by looking at his/her face... this is probably one of the reason why friends quarrel and miscommunication occurs.. today's tmtptbus online discussion just suck man.. we haven even started on the project, and we have to crap some stuff out.. so irritating.. took pics together as a grp for our BCS project, and the two alvins started gayying around... just like me and jenpeng... lolx... the meeting really brighten up my day...kinda nervous bout tml's presentation.. our first, major, formal presentation in TP.. gosh, hope everything will turn out well... remember, friends are for life.. treasure them..

cool dream...

i had this really cool and wonderful dream yesterday.. i dreamt that i was in this fantastically, amazing beautiful hotel.. welcoming guests into it.. then i realise... it's the JOAQUIM HOTEL!!! and next to me were alvin, grace and liza, and we were like standing by the entrance.. as though we were welcoming VIPs into our hotel.. and we all looked so professional in our uniform... lolx.. the guess who's the VIP??!! it's mr phua tt, ms tirzah and that crazy econs mr seah!!! wth.. really feel good bout finishing this project.. although we had some troubles in btw..... whateva it is, i'm just proud of it.. i dunno what comes into me but i just feel that now is not the right time to feel discouraged.. yes, it's tiring not sleeping, sleeping at 3,4 plus in the morning.. but it's all worth it.. although i do not need a cert to be an air stewardess.. i feel that this course will help me pursue my dreams to fly around the world and get away from this place... niwae, i just got this tie for alvin to go with his pink shirt.. i hope he likes it.. it'll definitely look nice with the shirt.. so whether he likes it or not, he gotta wear it for the sake of our presentation!!! lolx.. lastly, love ur friends, love urself..

i'm losing my rice bowl..

damn! there's gonna be a new full-timer stationing at the counter in OG, meaning that i have to make way.. in another words, i'll be jobless soon.. he's starting work on monday, so it's not comfirm if i'm still working during the weekends... not working means no allowance for me... looks like i have to resort to looking for any other jobs that i can find.. wth.. i haven done my comm skills yet.. feel so glad and relieve that our BCS project has finally recovered.. although it may not be as perfect as our first one.. nevertheless.. i'm very grateful towards my group members for putting so much effort and making this project a success.. alvin chai, nice hairstyle.. really... first time i viewing webcam from msn... it's interesting to me.. to see the person moves and all.. haha... i'm regaining my energy again!! lolx.. so looking forward to our BCS presentation.. can't wait to get it done and over with... lucky got econs project with this grp also.. if not i really can't bear to leave this grp... i feel so lonely now.. my dad's not in town... the whole family seems to be in a dull mood... niwae, i manage to change the file name from 'shit' to 'webproject' and thankfully nothing major went wrong.. if cannot change.. i'll be fretting over how to tell mr phua tt and it's not 'shit'... literally.. damn...

what a fuckstrating day!!!

today is so freaking stressed out.. our perfect BCS project went berserk, we couldn't open the file, liza was so stressed out, the other two looked so scared, everyone was asking bout us, and i just keep running about... consoling everyone except for myself... only after everything begin to be on track again, then i realise what had really happened.. i dun noe why i din freak out like i thought i would. i dun noe why i still have the energy to go around consoling ppl when i myself was in a terrible state. so terrible that i dun feel like going for the HTMIG interview. sometimes i just wish that someone would just understand me.. it's so difficult, trying to maintain a good-and-responsible-leader image. i always have to be in the calm and angelic position, simmering all kinds of hard feelings in the group, trying to get them to understand what i mean in a not-so-harsh way even when i'm already so irritated at times. give and take.. give and take.. i named the BCS webproject folder 'shit' in my zipdisk.. now alvin come and tell me that if change then the whole thing have to re-shuffle... wth.. what, hand it the zipdisk and ask mr phua tt to open the file 'shit'??!! and the damn comm skills essay, i haven even touch it yet.. everything is so shitty.. wth hell.. but luckily the interview for sub-comm didn't go wrong.. in fact i think i did quite ok.. and the singing session with cindy and shini really helped me to destress alot.. thank God..