what a fuckstrating day!!!

today is so freaking stressed out.. our perfect BCS project went berserk, we couldn't open the file, liza was so stressed out, the other two looked so scared, everyone was asking bout us, and i just keep running about... consoling everyone except for myself... only after everything begin to be on track again, then i realise what had really happened.. i dun noe why i din freak out like i thought i would. i dun noe why i still have the energy to go around consoling ppl when i myself was in a terrible state. so terrible that i dun feel like going for the HTMIG interview. sometimes i just wish that someone would just understand me.. it's so difficult, trying to maintain a good-and-responsible-leader image. i always have to be in the calm and angelic position, simmering all kinds of hard feelings in the group, trying to get them to understand what i mean in a not-so-harsh way even when i'm already so irritated at times. give and take.. give and take.. i named the BCS webproject folder 'shit' in my zipdisk.. now alvin come and tell me that if change then the whole thing have to re-shuffle... wth.. what, hand it the zipdisk and ask mr phua tt to open the file 'shit'??!! and the damn comm skills essay, i haven even touch it yet.. everything is so shitty.. wth hell.. but luckily the interview for sub-comm didn't go wrong.. in fact i think i did quite ok.. and the singing session with cindy and shini really helped me to destress alot.. thank God..