honestly, i dunno how to explain the feeling i'm experiencing now..

fear of losing...

fear of going back to the starting line..

fear of being alone again..

fear of facing reality.

facing the truth and wad's gonna come is really wad i fear most.

"If you don't know what you like doing, maybe you stopped listening to yourself years ago. Many of us became different people in order to please everyone else."

got this from somewhere i've read, and i find it very relevant to me, and many people around me..

singapore is too commercialised... not a place i can go to take in some fresh air and relax... and clear my mind and sort things out...

always end up at home, alone, and the stuffy area is not of any help in brightening up my mood.

despite all that has happened and all that will happen, i've learnt to think positive... and hopefully, this positivity will help tide me through all that i will go through in future..