going to manchester tonight, and i just finished packing my cargo bag.. haven painted my nails yet though.. maybe after i come back from my grandma's place..

had fbma meeting yesterday, then 881 with jon, bel and sherry.. touching, and interesting.. hokkien musical.. haha.. then to chinatown to get a chongsam for the DnD, and to TM for family dinner at crystal jade.. told my family that i might be working till the end of the bond, then probably go study, or get a normal job, or normal job and part time studies.. think most of them wasn't prepared for this since i just started my job, so there was a moment of silence.. shawn was talking to me about sightseeing in manchester and thinking about the hours to pass there, tears flooded my eyes..

and at night went to east coast park for supper with ailing and hao.. everyone seem to be a lil cranky.. and i shared with them the severe pessimism in me.. but surprisingly, i din cry.. guess i gotta learn how to control myself..

"心该怎么学会去适应，那些美丽的安静。。"

this morning my mom suddenly came and ask me, "why u only want to work for 2 yrs?" i was shock, she actually was listening to me yesterday and thinking about wad i said.. i just answered "cos my back is giving way.." and she ask me to go for acupuncture.. and yoga session.. let time decide what i should do in 2 yrs time...

stayed home the whole day today.. when i woke up, everyone was out already.. and no one came back till 7 plus at night.. boredom plus loneliness.. i think i'm having a severe phobia of that feeling.. and i mean, real severe.. even in singapore, i get the feeling, i think i can just die outstation.. even thinking about it now can bring tears to my eyes.. real shit feeling..

going on hkg turn tmr.. hope things will be fine.. wish me luck..

back from dhaka turn today.. pax were easy to handle.. crew were mostly nice.. probably affected by the experience in mel, i kinda prefer turnaround flights.. at least we get to stay around ppl all the time, and dun need to tie hair again.. haha.. but then again.. more stays to come..

rested in the day before meeting the cx clan.. miss them all.. and really glad that they are there to support me and understand how i feel.. funny how they can see the 'shagness' in me.. miss the times at cathay.. wish time can turn back.. but we can only go forward.. sigh..

back from Melbourne.. flight back is super busy.. out to clear cabin.. back with orders.. out with orders.. back with more orders.. out with more orders.. back with even more orders.. back and forth.. back and forth.. busy like hell.. lunch service was alright.. refreshment was super rush.. was suppose to go for 2nd round drinks, but din have the time, that i had to do collection together.. and when i was doing collection halfway thru.. "cabin crew, please prepare for arrival.." omg! rush thru everything and was a speedo.. but honestly.. that announcement is my fav.. cos it means we are touching down soon.. actually on flight is better than being alone in outstation.. at least there are ppl to talk to u.. and u are kept busy.. hmm..

let's talk about something happier.. my hong kong trip with hydi..

went on the first flight to hkg and met thabye on the plane.. she went there for holiday on the same flight as me also.. met hydi at hkg airport.. then met her friend, xiuhui.. took train to causeway bay.. then walked to the hotel from times square, in the rain.. pretty similar to my taiwan trip in taichung..

and then we went to prince edward to walk the streets and started out shopping..

2nd day we went to the central and then to the arena of stars.. we walked from street to street.. till our whole leg was aching..i brought memories from taipei to hong kong as well.. and not forgetting my zifu's idol as well...
jay's dad in movie.. cool..
the guy whom i met during my internship with cathay.. got his signature on his boarding pass, and shook his hand..
i found my long lost cum long distance relative.. haha..
went to the other side of causeway bay.. and we realised that sunday in hkg is like lucky plaza.. full of Filipinos.. and they really infest the whole place.. treating the road and bridges as their refuge camp.. with luggage and food.. omg..
see wad i mean.. water can be dripping from the umbrellas... into their food.. but they seem to be happy in their own world..

although tired, we couldn't miss visiting lan gui fang..
in the end we couldn't find a nice pub that we like.. so we ended up going back to the pub near our hotel to chill.. so there i was.. me and my cranberry vodka.. and hydi can't finish her lychee martini.. so i gulped it down for her!!

day 3 was to woman's street.. things there.. start ex.. have to cut cut cut.. but i din get much things from there either..
ppl in hkg love to carry branded goods.. LV, gucci, agnes b.. real or fake.. i dunno and i can't tell.. but this one i got here.. is extreme..
it's a LV car!!if u observe close enough.. the interior design is also LV pattern..

we were so tired.. we got on the train.. but on the wrong side of the platform.. and we din realise it until 3 stops later...
and then it's the last day of my hkg trip... standby for 4.15pm flight.. but it was full.. so had to linger around the airport till 7 plus for the 8pm flight.. i walked the departure and arrival level.. and i had the shrimp wanton which i've always wanted to try..
finally manage to go thru the departure panel at 7.30pm.. and the gate has to be so damn far.. i was the last to enter the aircraft.. well.. it was a nice break from training and i really enjoyed the trip alot...

on wed, went to sentosa with my batchgals.. love them all.. and we had fun playing volleyball, and having mini picnic at the beach..
the the day after, met ailing and hydi for lunch at tp.. really brings back lots of memories.. went to marina k box to k with hydi after lunch.. and met up with xiu, sha and nelson for dinner at vivo..
thinking back on the days i spent with my friends.. i'm really glad they are by my side.. love you guys..

tmr is another flight.. luck needed again..

in melbourne now.. and i feel like crying.. not because i had a bad flight, but because i'm super lonely here.. reached hotel at about 10.30am.. went out with some of the crew.. had lunch.. then back to hotel at about 1 plus.. slept for less than 2 hours.. and then i couldn't sleep.. very little tv channels.. very big bed.. and i feel so small in there... alone.. man. hate the feeling..

sitting on the bed, i seriously dunno wad to do with myself.. attempt to be interested in wad's on tv.. and wad's on the hotel magazine.. until i really cannot take it anymore, i called one of my crew.. dunno why, when she picked up the phone i felt a sense of familiarity and i was so happy that i cried.. i never knew feeling lonely can be this miserable.. my god.. and mind u, this is just my first solo flight.. many more to go. and many more long flights to go.

decided to come down to the business centre to try my luck with the coms.. and went on msn.. but only my 'brother' was available to talk to me.. can u imagine the feeling.. having someone to talk to when i really needed the most.. thanks bro.. although i cannot hear him, i can feel his presence when he talk to me.. makes me feel so much better..

was using the com in the biz centre when i saw kate from batch 911.. another familiar face!! when we talked about homesick.. we can see the tears welling up in each other's eyes..

can't wait to get home.. to where i can indulge myself in my friends' company..

today is the last day of training.. the last day we get to be together as a class.. and it has to end off with a super boring talk.. omg..

tmr going to hkg with dearest hydi and her friend... finally using the free tkt from cathay.. and taking the risk cos it expires on the 15th.. hehe.. and going and coming back, i have to be on standby.. well, i guess that's where the excitement comes in!!

going to turn in and prepare for flight tmr!! it's holiday time!!

can't post pics on my grad.. so here are some pics on post grad... today is red and white day to mark national day.. one day earlier cos tmr we're wearing pants.. lesser flexibility.. haha..

today's lesson is a little boring and draggy.. a little waste of time i would say.. but well, the colours helped brighten up the day.. mood was kinda affected by the song i was listening to.. but thanks to kai and zifu for calling.. and as usual, they nv fail to make my day.. see u guys tmr!!

today's my graduation day!!! finally.. after 3 and 1/2 months. i'm no more a trainee.. but leaving the training centre, leaving my batchmates, leaving my basic instructor, leaving the sheltered environment..


was running around the place fixing my laptop, co-ordinating the program, the ppl, taking care of my mom and ailing, bringing them around, and entertaining my mom and her sacarsm.. and ailing seemed to be very entertained by my mom and her words...


a little hiccups here and there.. but overall things were alright.. and the last part where we sang a song for our instructor, allison cried.. boot's speech hit all of us and many start to cry.. and i was told that half the auditorium were also crying.. considering we touched the audiences' hearts, i would say we had a successful graduation ceremony.. thanks to my beloved batch 912, my beloved instructor, and all that has contributed to the growth of this batch of newbies...


watched [secret] with ailing and mich at night.. lovely show.. not just becos of jay (but partly yes), also because of the interesting plot and the kind of love portraited in the movie.. sigh..
taken with my new phone.. i still like my old phone's camera better..

last day of training before my graduation.. did a rehearsal.. and it was tough job being in charge.. getting ppl together and to listen to u.. omg.. it's even more difficult than learning the dance steps.. but at least things are on track now.. it had better be.. cos graduation is next monday.. my mom and ailing's gonna come and support me!! yeah..

went to beijing and perth for my B777 OJT..

in beijing.. went to a wholesale marketplace.. things were super cheap.. but i din get much things..

i was influenced to go for massage.. even though i know i'll get fever if i had one... so i opted for leg massage.. haha.. afraid that it might still have an effect on my body, i took panadol before i slept that night before flight..

and in perth.. i went sightseeing and shopping with this taiwanese crew.. walk quite a distance and up a steep slope to king's park, then walked for another 30 minutes to the outlet (a shopping place).. and then took a free bus to the town area.. and this town area looks super familiar.. if i'm not wrong, it's the same place i went to when i was in pri 5, when i went over for my dad's uni graduation..

we made our own sandwich and brought it to the park for breakfast.. romantic right??

we went to look at LV wallets.. super nice.. but super ex.. haha..

on the flight back.. someone fainted on me.. and i had to handle the case.. stress.. at that point of time i was trying to recall the things i learnt during first aid.. scary.. but lucky she was alright..

well.. after graduation.. i'm on my own.. hopefully i'll be able to fully adapt the lifestyle..

wish me luck..