stayed home the whole day today.. when i woke up, everyone was out already.. and no one came back till 7 plus at night.. boredom plus loneliness.. i think i'm having a severe phobia of that feeling.. and i mean, real severe.. even in singapore, i get the feeling, i think i can just die outstation.. even thinking about it now can bring tears to my eyes.. real shit feeling..

going on hkg turn tmr.. hope things will be fine.. wish me luck..