the feeling in me is making me crazy. i'm feeling so so vexed, i feel like exploding. so so many questions in my mind, so many doubts about so many things, and yet, i don't have the courage to clear them all.
they say, actions speaks louder than words. and i totally agree with that. u know, u don't need to say anything, but from your responses to me and reactions, i know. i know that things have changed. i'm no longer soughted after, i'm no longer loved, i'm no longer wanted. that really pains me to know, to know that i'm so unattractive, so uncool to be with, so much so that the people around me that matters to me, are taking my presence for granted.
i'm feeling so so dejected, so so rejected, and so so unwanted. it seems like wherever i go, my big build is just a hindrance to the crowd: makes it harder for people to squeeze their way through, people behind me can't see wad's in front of them... i just don't seem to fit in anywhere, in any place, in anyone's lives, in anyone's world.
if one day i really disappear, will anyone bother to look me up? if one day i really say goodbye to the world, will anyone's lives change cos of my absence? if one day i just leave, will anyone hold me back? probably, but at this point of time, my heart tells me no.
love is such a strong and powerful tool. it helps to make one a better person, or not. be it love from ur friends, family, or the one u love, they all play a part to make up who u are now. i'm lacking love, from all 3 sources of love, and i'm feeling really down without it. of course, the world doesn't just revolve around love, there's still career and things to do in life. but my life is an empty shell. there's nothing else for me to do, except to fill it up with all the love i can, because it just seem extremely hard for love to come by in my life, from my family, and from the one i love.
HAVE YOU EVER..
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say,
And suddenly the moment's gone, and all your dreams are upside down, and you just want to change the way the world goes round, tell me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody, wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry,
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, baby,
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking, looking down the road you should be taking,
I should know, 'cause I loved and lost, the day I let you go.
Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together,
Back in your arms where I belong,
And now I've finally realized, it was forever that I've found,
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round, tell me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody, wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry,
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, baby,
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking, looking down the road you should be taking,
I should know, 'cause I loved and lost, the day I let you go.
Don't even want to hear you say, that you know just how it feels,
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Oh and though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow,
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round, tell me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody, wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry,
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, baby,
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking, looking down the road you should be taking,
I should know, 'cause I loved and lost, the day I let you go
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