时间到了　
感情冻了　
而我　听妳唱歌　
唱著分开也该能快乐
妳的笑我瞭解　
我只是綁住妳的蝴蝶结

让妳走了　
想妳快乐　
Oh No 怎么改了　
我们尽力愛过的情节
每个吻每一天　
愛著妳等著妳想著妳
捨不得这篇

愛情故事

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know

So now I'm all alone,
you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
How could you forget about me
You got me feeling crazy
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting

u taught me how to love.. who's gonna teach me how to let go..

你说你要飞翔的自由
这不过是一个借口
我也会接受

曾经牵着你的手 还有什么要求
我只要躲在你背后
总有一天 我会成为你最好的朋友
无理取闹也会忍受
心在痛 泪眼倒流

我不懂你的心 还要守到最后
就算爱情厌旧 从指缝溜走 擦破我双手
你不懂我的心
有时候真的好累想不再回头
放开所有
可惜我一直没办法留 却也没办法走

想找一个理由 好让我转身就走
为什么这个时候才发现我愈恨你愈难受

我不懂你的心 还要守到最后
就算拥抱变旧 温度已不够
我一样温柔
你不懂我的心 尝试过一千遍写下很多理由
决定放手
可惜我一直没办法了 却也没办法走

been invited to 08's class gathering.. A whole new set of emotions overwhelmed me... Seeing them united, and even closer after clifton's death.. Seeing them so determined to meet regularly, keeping the 08's spirit up...

I'm honoured to have been invited to be part of this occasion, and to witness one and all.. How friends can actually stay as friends as long as they want to.. And how couples appear to be ever so sweet to others... Really envy this group of people, cos the prime time has past, and I dun think I'll ever get a chance to find a group of friends like them and be part of them...

For once, I felt that I din belong there... I felt that I was spoiling the 'Class' thing... When they played the video, I teared. I've seen this class get together, for birthdays, for chalets, for funeral, for almost everything.

Time just seem to pass too fast.. I realise I haven done a lot of things.. Like have a primary sch friend whose my good friend now, have a group of gals who will stick to one another like the girls in sex in the city.. Like to hang on to things I want instead of letting them slip out of my hand...

All the things I haven done, made me really envy of these people with a smile as they watch the video.. Cos, I suddenly realise I live life once... And time dun turn back for no one.. And I've lost my chance...

But anyway, it's been a night of emotions..

so many songs can describe my feelings... and yet i can describe my feelings using my own words..

probably i'm just loss or words...

after this 3 days off.. i'll be working non-stop for 2 weeks, perth and back, no break, dubai istanbul and back, no break, brisbane and back... then one day break before i'm going off to beijing again...

i guess i haven worked so hard for so long... or i should say, i'm just focusing on doing my projects, studying for exams, and working like no one's business.. yeah.. no one's business..

i was just learning to be contented being ur friend... why do u have to take my only contentment away...

why do u have to take my only happiness away...

u said things are still going to be the same...

why are u changing things... why are u taking my only hope away..

why...

there are so many things i wanna know... but i can't ask them anymore... cos i'm in no position to do so..

i'm in no position to be a creditor for life too... cos i have no debtor..

i'm alone again. sitting away.. watching the days go by... drowning myself with tears..

I’ll Never Get Over You Getting Over Me – MYMP

I hear your taking the town again
Having a good time
With all your good time time friends
I don’t think that you think of me
Your on your own now
And i’m alone and freeI know that i should get on with my life
But a life live without you could never be right

As long as the star shine down from the heaven
As long as the river run to the sea
I’ll never get over you getting over me

I tried to smile so the hurt won’t show
Tell everybody i was glad to see you go
But the tears just won’t go away
Loneliness found me looks like its here to stay

I know that i ought to find someone new
But all i found is my self always thinking of you

As long as the star shine down from the heaven
As long as the river run to the sea
I’ll never get over you getting over me

Oh no matter what i do
Each nights a life time to live through
I can’t go on like this
I need your touch
Your the only one i ever loved

And as long as the star shine down from the heaven
As long as the river run to the sea
I’ll never get over you,getting over,
I’ll never get over you,
I’ll never get over you getting over me…

today .. Marks the end of things... The feeling's just Damn weird.. Cos, it's not ending on a bad note like how it usually does.. And I'm still loving all that I'm doing and all that I've loved..

I dunno how to get used to this new change.. Not the change of absence and presence, but the change of statues, change of lifestyle, change of conversation openings, change of thoughts... One change lead to many, and I'm really not ready for this...

I tried so hard to salvage, but to no avail... I dun have a choice, and I've come to realise rhat that's nothing much I can do about it... How am I suppose to behave and be myself again?? I really wonder..

People say it's just a phase of life.. And I'll get over it with time.. It may be true' but I'm quite certain, the time for me will not be short.. Cos in my heart, the place has already been taken up... Deeply embedded, and almost impossible to get it off my heart..

Dear friends, pls dun ask to much about wad I've shared here.. Cos it's really tough for me to share the process all over again.. Just know, I'll be fine.. But not now... Maybe I will be fine in a month's time or two? I'm not sure..

The tme spent has been a wondeful one, and I will always treasure it... Definitely unforgetable and I just feel very sad about this...

Friends.. Best friends.. Chance? I'm not sure if I'm given one.. Is this the easy way out? does this means I've not been determined and have not perservered enough? I'm not sure too...

I've kinda 'beg' for things to not turn out this way... But I was turned down, turned away, and ultimately rejected..

thinking of u always... This will never change. And I'm certain about it...

Dun forget me ok? Cos i will miss u, and still love u...

Don't Go Away by Oasis

Cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say
About the things caught in my mind
And as the day was dawning my plane flew away
With all the things caught in my mind

I don't wanna be there when you're ...
Coming down
I don't wanna be there when you hit the ground

So dont go away, say what you say
Say that you'll stay
Forever and a day ... In the time of my life
Cos I need more time, yes I need more time just to make things right

Damn my situation and the games I have to play
With all the things caught in my mind
Damn my education I can't find the words to say
With all the things caught in my mind

Me and you whats going on?
All we seem to know is how to show
The feelings that are wrong

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


hmm... quite true... not totally... but majority...

"Most people don't marry the loves of their lives. You marry for compatibility; for friendship. It may not be a kind of relationship where you can read each others minds, but its comfortable, like a familiar warm spot on your favorite chair. That's just another kind of love, one that doesn't burn itself out, one that lasts in the real world."

"Songs of the Humpback Whale" - Jodi Picoult


so is it true? one that will last in the real world? the love of my life... compatibility... not reading each other's minds.. comfortable... love... all so familiar...

i'm scared.

" most men lie to make themselves feel better... most women lie to make others feel better.."

is it true? if it is, i admit. i lie. very often in fact.

i'm sorry.

i'm just trying to make everyone happy..

honestly, i dunno how to explain the feeling i'm experiencing now..

fear of losing...

fear of going back to the starting line..

fear of being alone again..

fear of facing reality.

facing the truth and wad's gonna come is really wad i fear most.

"If you don't know what you like doing, maybe you stopped listening to yourself years ago. Many of us became different people in order to please everyone else."

got this from somewhere i've read, and i find it very relevant to me, and many people around me..

singapore is too commercialised... not a place i can go to take in some fresh air and relax... and clear my mind and sort things out...

always end up at home, alone, and the stuffy area is not of any help in brightening up my mood.

despite all that has happened and all that will happen, i've learnt to think positive... and hopefully, this positivity will help tide me through all that i will go through in future..

finally had the chance and the mood to sit down at my desk... sort out the photos that has been accumulated in my camera.. and blogged about some of the happenings in my life for the past 2 months...

firstly, i'm proud to be a blood donor!! haa... happened just last saturday..

yeah... purple dumbbell with purple bandage... dear just had to make me do that... haa...

earlier in march... met up with my taiwan gang... had lunch... window shop a bit... and ended up at candy's shop at suntec...

and then at night was emo night at ai qing hai... with ailing, hao and jingmin came and join us... the light above looked like full moon doesn't it... hee..

ok.... then it was my short holiday to shanghai... main purpose is to meet my dear there....

look at the building in gold!! looks like a piece of gold bar!

met jackie chan... in wax...

and check out the superb english translation on the menu of this restaurant...

cool isn't it... haa...

and... ppl in china in the past will wear their pj out on the street.. as it signify wealth... din know the tradition exists till now...

one of those k session w drey...

and my LAX trip... and my 2 khakis for the flt....

tobias and jennifer...

yummy japanese udon in sizzling curry!!

headed towards the beach... wonderful wonderful weather... not too cold.. not too hot...

macho man with a lil odd body shape.. hee..

check out the cute lil boy!!

one of the restaurant at the beach has this really majestic signboard....

my long long long break starts after my exams... and my best friend finally met my darling boyfriend...

fantastic shot from dear...

dearest of all...

best of all...

i've got some news from china.. and really wanted to share this with my close friends.. but when i wanna do so, i realise that there isn't many that i can look for.. everyone seems to be busy with sch, work and their own life..

realise that it mght have been a problem of my own, that i've not contacted my friends for quite some time.. and this is probably wad they call a shell syndrome.. staying at home on my off days.. not going out with friends.. spending time alone..

watched a serial on tv.. this gal suffered from cancer.. and she forced herself to leave the guy she loves because she dun wanna burden him, dun want him to embark on the painful journey with her.. wants him to forget her and find someone who can give him happiness. all these happens because she's not confident that the guy loves her enough to stand by her through thick and thin.. and will still be there for her when she's ill.. wad he said to her really touched me..

"even if i were to lose u one day, i'd have had the most wonderful memories..."

putting myself in her shoe.. i'm really touched.. tears rolled down my cheeks uncontrollably.. it's weird how i've always imagine myself contracting some weird illness.. and how i'll deal with it.. to tell or not to tell my close friends... how to release the news to my loved one.. whether i'll do the same as wad the gal in the serial did..

anyway.. chatted with michelle earlier today and realise we're both facing similar problems.. really dunno wad i can do for her.. but all i can do is pray for all my close friends, hope they'll get the happiness that they deserve. she shared this song with me... and i'm beginning to like it too.. i'll share with u guys here..

tonight i wanna cry.. by keith urban..

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

(Chorus:)
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

i know that it's been a really long time since i last blogged. and i know it's been a really long time since i last posted pictures.. i really do apologise for the inconsistent updates here..

many things have happened, in work, in sch, in friendship, in relationship, in life.

and i for once, have felt a real disappointment, and i felt that i've grown up to be a understanding gal, and i'm really proud to be one actually.

one may thing i'm crazy, but i like wad i'm doing now and i like who i am for my friends. my family, and my loved one.

recently, days passed without my knowledge... time seem to pass so fast, but yet days are ironically long when i'm alone.

just a post to let all my friends who havent seen or heard from me know that i'm fine, busy with work and studies, and i havent forgotten any one of u at all.

i will update my blog soon, when i have more time to myself...

it's valentine's day today... and i was with a bunch of international people going to and leaving manila for company...

we promised not to take regard of special occasions like christmas or valentine's day, but can't help feeling a bit envious of the couples on the streets...

nevertheless, i look forward to skyping everyday... cos i know that my dear will be there... and it's really a bonus for me...

thus... having a bonus everyday, shouldn't i be happy that i'm spending valentine's day everyday?

i am, and i'm thankful....

shit happens, and i missed the chance to hold him close this month, so i'm looking forward to march. wadever shit that happens out of our control, it really serves as obstacles in our relationship. but after each one, my faith and strength increase.. i hope shit stop happening to me, and may god be kind to me one more time... or maybe many more times pls...

okie... here's the post on the dinner with my ex-CX colleagues...

i think this is by far the gathering that has the most no. of ppl... =) thanks to agnes for hosting us at her place... =)

super big yu sheng!!



HUAT AH!!


and look at the mess... the poor floor also kana.. and ppl's hands too!!





eugene's artistic angle.. hee..



and long long long time no see dory!!




and this is catherine... my senior from poly.. think i haven met her since one and a half yrs ago, on her birthday at her old place.. did some catching up, and watched ... and did a bit of window shopping... except she was suppose to get her bf a gift, but i ended up to be the one getting the gift for my own dear!! haha... but she's still the same... still the same catherine, still as nice... =)



CNY mood is over.. (not like i had any of that)... tmr is the start of classes and training... means assignment to be due.. and more work to be done...



the only thing that i'm looking forward to, is my trip to shanghai next week.. how i wish the stay could be longer... i just miss his presence.. and miss being pampered...

had my first yu sheng of the year... with my 903 gang... last yr's CNY we also had our CNY dinner at this sakae sushi at eastpoint...


i thought the salmon was displayed very nicely...

HUAT AH!!!

TAT MING IN THE HOUSE!!

and the gals went for 'ladies night' at starbucks and got the must-have green tea frap!!

then we realised that samsung is now in trend in our gang... (spot audrey)

and spot the 3 lovely gals.. we thought this reflection thing is damn cool... and we had some fun with it...

TA DA!!

and even this... was interesting... haha...

and there u go... lovely night spent with lovely ppl.. and although i lost 10 bucks to fu at mj during the day, i wasn't really in the lousy mood...

cos had a talk with audrey, shared my story with ailing, tat ming treat me to dinner... and i cleared the issue that was pressing me... thanks to all...

life is vulnerable.. and as such, we dont know when we're going to go, esp in my line... had a bad dream a few days ago... and it made me treasure the moments when i sms my loved ones whenever i reach somewhere safely... and of course i worry whenever my loved ones are away..

random thoughts aside, spent a wonderful time with my ex CX colleagues yesterday... all the catching up, updating each other on each other's life, steamboat and all the laughs... i just totally miss them... i shall post the pictures taken on my next post...

till then, take care my friends...