Been busy doing the things I do... Supporting him, spending time with my close friends, and thinking of him. I know I should occupy my time with things I used to do and all, but I can't help thinking about his well-being all day. Thinking if he's tired from all the work and studying, thinking if he's feeling lousy about anything, thinking if he's doing alright.

I feel angry and upset with myself for making him angry and upset that night. I know he cares for me, but I feel angry with myself for taking up his time when he has more important things to do. I'm angry with myself and annoyed with myself for getting drunk that night, and he has to take care of me all night, when he could have been studying. The last thing I wanna do is to burden him with me, myself and everything about me. But I've been the opposite lately, and I hate myself for that.

It sucks when all U wanna do is to be there for the one u love, and yet, u dun have the right to do so. It sucks when u know all u can think about is the one person that occupies ur mind all day and night and yet u can't tell him. It sucks when all u wanna do is to love him with all ur might, but the red light is on. And it just sucks that, this sucky feeling is so strong.

Many tells me, u deserve better, u deserve more, u deserve to be loved the way u love others. And I believe I do too, I'm just crossing my fingers, placing a bet, and hoping one fine day, I will be loved too.

Till that day, I'm gonna do my thing, and be there for u, always.


For You I Will

When you're feeling lost in the night,
When you feel your world just ain't right
Call on me, I will be waiting
Count on me, I will be there

Anytime the times get too tough,
Anytime your best ain't enough
I'll be the one to make it better,
I'll be there to protect you,
See you through,
I'll be there and there is nothing
I won't do.

I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero your strength
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
Promise you,
For you I will.

I will shield your heart from the rain
I will let no harm come your way
Oh these arms will be your shelter
No these arms won't let you down

If there is a mountain to move
I will move that mountain for you
I'm here for you, I'm here forever
I will be your fortress, tall and strong
I'll keep you safe,
I'll stand beside you, right or wrong

For you I will, lay my life on the line
For you I will fight, oooooh
For you I will die
With every breath, with all my soul
I'll give my world
I'll give it all
Put your faith in me (put you're faith in me)
And I'll do anything

I will cross the ocean for you (I will cross the ocean for you)
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero your strength
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
Promise you (Promise you)
For you I will