exactly one week ago.. my happiness was put to a stop.. and till today, i'm still oblivious to where i'm heading to... but one thing for sure i know:
只要有一点不甘心，就不是到放弃的时候。
and i'm holding on to this faith and hope, so strong it overwhelms me sometimes..

i never imagine myself to pour my feelings on my blog again. i thought those days were over, i thought i'll never need to talk to my blog again. but turns out, that's not the case. so much so much thoughts that run through my head, and i'll never be able to share them with anyone else like i do in my blog.

when i'm sad or happy, i turn to music. and the lyrics to every single song i hear will make me link it back to him.. and so, i'm gonna slowly express my feelings, through songs, and i'm gonna keep the faith and hope going. stronger, firmer, and i know i can do it.

明知我愛你

告诉你 瞒着你 只不过是个决定
放弃你 忘记你 只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你 越靠近你 越犹豫

明知道我爱你 却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你 宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理 幸福在手里
我恨自己 无能为力

明知道我爱你 却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意 反而痛了自己
多痛都可以 不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系