u know, when a group of crew gather together for a chat, we always seem to learn new things from each other... there was the time when they teach me the proper way of wearing a bra, teach me about yeast infection, about skin care, and of course, BGR will always be part of the conversation.

on my previous trip, 3 of us sat down together, all 3 with different views about BGR. one is married, one is in a relationship, and me, i dunno if this is considered dating, so i'll say i'm single. the one who's married feels that life is beautiful. she feels that being able to find someone who loves her and is willing to take care of her, she's very fortunate, and she'll do all it takes to make this marriage last as long as it can. meaning, she's willing to compromise herself to accomodate her husband and does everything he says.

the one who is in a relationship, says it's tough being with someone. she finds herself losing herself day by day, and she can no longer see the independent and strong-headed her anymore. and she's wondering, how did it happened, and how did she allow it to happen? she don't believe that there will be happiness at the end of the day, instead, she believes that they are together as companions, and to help each other along the way in life. she doesn't think that being in a relationship will lead to a happy ending, and if one is not careful, it may bring one down instead of making someone a better person.

as for me, i stand in between. i believe one always have to compromises in a relationship to make things work. everyone has their differences and everyone has their own set of beliefs and thinking. this is where the compromising comes in. however, there should be a limit and u should know where to draw the line and tell yourself to stop compromising when u realize u are losing urself.

i think the difference in perception from the 3 of us is not only cos of the different personality, but also because of the difference in status. cos she's married, she has no choice but to do all it takes to make it work, and in her case, is to compromise. cos she's attached, she can still be wild and be stubborn about doing things her way without sparing a thought for her bf, whether or not whatever she does or doesn't do will hurt the relationship. and cos i'm single, i wish for a happy ending like the married gal, but yet still wanna be myself, and thus, the integration of both perceptions.

it's just one of the interesting observations i've made, from all the interaction with all the crew and pax i've talked to.. their views on certain issues. and sometimes, it just makes me wonder, at the end of the day, wad is it i really want.

i'm a simple gal really. i dun need branded goods to keep me alive, i dun need recognition in the society to feel important. i'm just a gal who at the end of the day, wanna find a man who loves me like i love him and settle down with him, start a small family, lead a simple and peaceful life. a shelter over my head, food and water to keep me alive, and recognition in the eyes of the man i love, to keep the fire burning in me. period.

not too much to ask for i hope.