today feels like god's gift to me... i met angela (she's the one who was there for me when i was upset about E***), met wendy (the gal i went on holiday with), leeli came in today (and called me to chat with me)... all the close colleagues of mine, all gathered in LA on the same day... what are the chances? it was as though god knows i've been feeling down, and sent these angels to keep me company and to cheer me up..

i've been busy with my own stuff and they have been with their own too, and it was nice to finally meet them by chance and catch up with them.. angela spent the day with me, wendy's sleeping with me tonight to keep me company, and leeli's having lunch w me tomorrow before i check out and head back home...

and when i'm back home, i need to go back to reality, and face everyone again. it's a dilemma. when i'm overseas,though i may feel lonely without my friends that i can call upon, it's a chance for me to hide away from all the troubles i have back home... yet when i'm back home, i gotta face the reality and be brave and brace for whatever that i may encounter anytime.. but i can see the people i love, and be there for the one i love.

i guess this is life for me.. always having to think about others before me, always having to be understanding in all kinds of situation.. just so that everyone else can be happy.

seems like life's never gonna be smooth sailing for me.. and the jaded feeling i have is never gonna get me anywhere near love. not even to someone i love, let alone to be loved by someone.


我知道

从来没想过
不能再和你牵手
委屈时候
没有你陪着我心痛

一切都是我太过骄纵
以为你会懂
一直忘了说
我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由
我们都以接受

你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后
还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时
闭着眼没有回头

我们都知道 彼此心中
其实 这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦 在脑海里头
我多希望你 还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由
我们都以接受

你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后
还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时
闭着眼没有回头

答应你 我会好好过
不让 这些眼泪 白流